Stories Of My Life

2008-04-14T14:15:00.000+08:00

I think its going down the drain.
If its not working out, why bother trying?

I'm at school now. Doing my coursework while waiting for Nawal.
I've not been blogging much since life has been pretty hectic.
Y'know, with school & stuff. I just suck at managing time.
I haven't started revising yet and exams are just around the corner.
God. I'm not ready for my Ns. This is just freaking N level and I don't have the confident to do well. So how am I supposed to do well for my Os then? Damn.
Okay, whatever. I don't wanna get myself stressed up just thinking bout freaking N level.
Anyways, I decided to delete the previous post since I already told Suriya that I will do so.
So are you happy now my dear? -_______-
Alright. Gotta go off now. Nawal's here.
Toodles.

2008-03-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

Thanks NAWAL for being there when I needed somebody to talk to.

As much as I hate you for always, always trynna test my patience, I love you still.

I appreciate everything that you've done. & Thanks for all those advices.

I really need it.

I couldn't thank you enough. I love you.

You've destroyed me.

Are you happy now?

2008-03-19T01:52:00.001+08:00

So long & Goodbye..

I nearly broke down. Almost cried. & I am crying right now.
I feel the loss. I've lost my companion. I feel like I have nobody now.
Its strange how my companion gave a deep impact on me.
Yes.. I know its kind of silly to cry over losing someone.
When you know that they are gone for good and they won't come back to you anymore.
I feel like an idiot. I care for my companion so much when I know that my companion doesnt even care for me. I'll miss you. Even though I've always hated cleaning you up. & I have to bear with it for almost 2 years.
Its such a chore and you, being a pain in the ass.... Running, hopping or trying to pull off some stunts and pissing all over the place. But still, it was fun having you around. What were you thinking? I'm talking about some jerk who left me? LOL. Nah.. Bit-bit, my one & only rabbit had just passed away. Thats why I put up her picture here. I couldnt sleep earlier on cause I was dead worried about it. I found out that theres something wrong with her when my lil sis told me at 11 plus pm. So I actually sacrificed some hours to check up on Bit-bit. I couldn't feel any pulse when I checked on her around 1.30 am. So by then I know she was dead. Told my lil sis and woke up my mom immediately. Lol. & Guess what! My lil sis cried & I laughed at her. Geez, I am so mean & I ended up crying too. What the hell. Anyway, in case you're wondering.. its almost 3 AM now. So I guess I really have to go to bed. I have school in a few hours time. -______-

R.I.P Bit-bit.(Ya, I know its a lame name. I was the one who came up with it. So yeah..)
We'll miss you.

2008-03-17T16:53:00.000+08:00

Gahh. I just hate school. I'm so sleepy..... feel like dozing off right now. *Yawns*

I've been feeling so down lately and I couldn't sleep that well either. Just that I've been doing a lot of thinking. Spent most of my nights letting thoughts wander..

& Ahah! I ended up thinking bout him. More to... US, actually. *Yawn, Yawn, Yawn*

Hence, that kinda explains why my eyebags are getting worse & I just realize that I'm getting ugly. Or maybe, I already am? Haha. Well, I don't know.

I just hate looking at my face in the mirror. I just look awful. I mean, like totally.

Geez, with all these pimples that I'm having right now. Ahh. *Shrugs*

Okay whatever. I don't care. I don't have dimples but I have pimples.

I don't have straight teeth but big teeth.

I'm not fair, I'm dark. I don't have a figure like Beyonce but whatever.

At least I don't look distorted or deformed...whichever.

& For that, I thank YOU, the one above, the greatest of all..... who have created me.

Anyways, the above picture was drawn by me. Yeah.. You can mock me all you want.

I'm not much of an artist, am I? Just sketched it for fun.

Cause I was bored & its been years since I last drew something... So I just thought of drawing....erm, SOMETHING. LOL.

Was inspired by a picture of Marilyn Monroe. Err yes!

The woman in my drawing doesnt even look like Marilyn Monroe.

I'm not an art student goddamnit.

I'm a fucking food & nutrition student so its kinda understandable if I don't know how to draw!

Hah. & The extreme top picture was taken a few months ago when I was actually 'ransacking' my parents bedroom. Since they were not at home & boredom kinda striked me.. so I did just that. Hah. Should do it often... who knows if I might get lucky and find some porn videos. Geez. Can't imagine my parents watching porn together in their bedroom. Okay I'm freaking myself out. & Er, I was kidding about pornos. I'm not that pervert! Sheesh.

I was thinking... If one day I'd turn out to be a homosexual, I'll probably marry Nawal. Thats if she turned out to be one too. Then we'll adopt babies or go to the sperm bank to perform my own or Nawal's artificial insemination or IVF treatment. Whichever... I'll consider the bestest option thats readily available. How awesome is that?! & Now I feel like being an embryologist.

I guess I'm really losing my sanity. God, help me please.

2008-03-06T20:00:00.005+08:00

Yuhoooo. "Baby, I'm back yeahhhh. I'm here to cater to you..."
Haha. Okay that was crap.
I guess I really have to update my blog. Its been so long....
School was boring as ever. Imagine, having F&N lessons for the whole week.
Geez.
I might as well spend some quality time on my bed. I really need a lot of sleep, you know.
Finally, I'm done with my R&D which is part of my coursework.
Three cheers for Nadiah!
Yeeeeey!
Okay fine, I'm happy that I managed to get it done by today but the thing is, I'm not sure if I'll be able to get a high band for my R&D. *sighs.
Anyways, I did omelette sushi(err, yeah. omelette!ew?) and cream puff for practical today.
My cream puff doesn't look puffy at all.
It somehow turned out like a flat pancake.
So theres no way for me to fill in custard inside the puff. What I did was to spread the custard onto the base of the puff and fold it into two. & it did look like curry puff instead of cream puff.
-_____-
My omelette sushi doesn't taste that bad afterall & it was my first time making sushi. How awesome is that! Hehe.
Oh by the way.. Just wanna share some 'cool' stuff with ya guys. Here's a conversation between me & a classmate of mine:

Classmate: Nadiah, justify is the same as satisfy, right?
Me: *blank face*
Classmate: Ahh. Nvm. I ask teacher. Mrs ________, justify is th........
Me: NOOOO! Oh my god. Justify and satisfy has a totally different meaning.
Classmate: Really? I thought it means the same?
Teacher: What do you wanna ask Classmate?
Classmate: Er.. nothing, nothing.
Me: No Mrs ________, Classmate asked whether justify and satisfy means the same or not.
Classmate: *whispers "fuck you."
Teacher: Classmate! I can't believe you don't know the difference between justify and satisfy.
Me: Exactly!
Teacher: You really have to brush up on your vocab, Classmate. Really, you know. Justify and satisfy are common vocab words. You should already know the meanings of those words by now!
Me: Exactly!
Classmate: *glares at me.
Me: Oops. Okay fine, I'm so sorry.
- End of conversation -

Geez. I can't believe my classmate doesn't know the difference between justify and satisfy. What was he thinking man?! Just because both words sounded alike? Oh ma god. Not that my vocab is THAT fantastic. But seriously, even a primary school kid can tell the difference between justify and satisfy. Nevertheless, I'm glad that he actually asked. Imagine if he were to make a sentence using satisfy. For an instance, "I'm not satisfied with the answer that he gave me." and he replace the word 'satisfied' with 'justified'. "I'm not justified with the answer that he gave me."
-______- Okay. I am so mean.

At last, my lil sis is back from camping! Yahoooo! I actually missed her when she was away which is something unbelievable cause all these while I don't really care about her that much. I mean, I'm always grateful whenever she's not at home. Its not that I'm being a bad sister. Its just that I can't stand all those mess that she make. & When I nag at her, she'll shout at me. Wahlao. See, even my lil sis doesn't know how to respect me. Just because I'm like way shorter than her and she knows that it doesn't really matter if shes rude to me cause I'll never stay mad at her for more than an hour. Okay, my lil sis is taking advantage of me. This is so saddening man. *Sighs.
=(

Well I guess thats about it.
Take care lovelies.
Will update more if I have stuff to blog about. Lol.

I don't try to hide my tears.

&The secrets are my deepest fears.

2008-02-21T16:44:00.000+08:00

School was a total fucked up. I just hate it when people keep on asking me the same questions over and over again.
I already said, I DON'T KNOW. So why do you guys keep on asking me....
"Why Nadiah?" "What happened Nadiah?" "Whats wrong Nadiah?" "Are you okay Nadiah?" "How can you not know anything?"
GOD!!!! Do you know how irritated I was? What the fuck man?! Why are you guys being so bloody nosy for?!
Seriously, seriously. If it wasnt because of me, trying to control myself from losing my temper....I'd have done something.....well...just something which I can't think of right now cause I'm in a rational state of mind currently. Just something that you thought I'm not capable of. You really don't wanna get close to me when I lose my temper. Trust me, trust me.
Anyway, I already made a fool outta myself at the parade square just now. It was such an embarassing sight since I was like a totally deranged woman. But I don't care, really. I don't care at all. At least, I feel better now.

Note to those who "concern" about the people around them so much : Sometimes, really.. You don't have to bother. Just mind your own asses & stop prying into other people's affairs.

Thank you very much. :D
Much love, Nadiah.

2008-02-18T21:02:00.000+08:00

Phewww. I'm not feeling good right now. Having sore throat & running nose.
Had a long day in school today. Got back home at 6 pm. Just to stayback for maths classes.
Still, I'm not confident about doing well for maths paper tomorrow. I suck at probability.
I mean, seriously! Gaahhh. & I don't feel like studying now. All I feel like doing is to curl up in my bed and sleeeeeeep. & Theres HEROES at 10. Bloody hell. Guess I have to give it a miss since I havent started revising yet.
Oh. Yeah, you got that right. Short post again for today. Haha.

2008-02-17T17:59:00.001+08:00

Damn.
Okay this is really getting on my nerves.
I already typed a long entry and suddenly my comp shut down by itself.
Wtf.
Fine. I'll summarise everything into a short post then.
So yesterday I went out studying with Nawal and the two Syahirahs.
Headed to Nawal's place first & I got to see Imaad.
WoohoOo! Trust me, I'm so gonna make him mine soon. Just you wait & see.
Eventhough he's like way younger than me, who cares... age doesn't matter when it comes to love.
Oh oh. Btw, Imaad is Nawal's lil bro. Haha.
Nawal's mom baked some brownies and she asked me to try some.
So I guess I gobbled up more than 3 pieces of it. It was damn nice laa.
At around one plus, met up with the two Syahirahs at Whitesands.
Initially, we wanted to study at the library but it was kinda packed.
So we studied outside BK instead.
Did some revision on maths & a lil bit on physics.
Went off at 5. Met up with Zin at hougang and slacked till 8 pm.
& Ohh. Guess what? I got to know some interesting stuff. Theres this particular two-faced bitch who hated me at first sight & thinks I'm ugly. Okay well, I'm cool with that. I don't care if you're
gonna hate me or anything as long as I know I didnt do anything wrong to you. So why must there be hatred between us? Haha. Well, just so you know honey, I don't really fancy you either. So we're even. *big grins* I guess I have to play along with you. Just fake a smile whenever I see
you like you always do when you see me. Lol
Enough said about that lewd woman aite.
CT starts tomorrow by the way. So I guess till here then.
Gotta do some revision.

Should I just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere?

2008-02-15T14:04:00.000+08:00

I DETEST ANIMAL CRUELTY!
FUCK THOSE MENTALLY DERANGED BASTARDS WHO ABUSE INNOCENT ANIMALS!
BRAINLESS TOADS! IDIOTS!
Pfft. If I could, I'll kill them all. But of course, I won't go to that extent.
I'm still sane, unlike those dickheads.
One day I will make a difference in this world to make it a safer place for all animals.
& All animal abuser shall perish & burn in hell.

Amin.

2008-02-14T22:06:00.001+08:00

Darn.
Don't bother asking me how was my valentine.
It just suck. My first time ever celebrating Valentine's and it just suck.
I can't think of any words to describe how sucky it was.
It just suck okay. Suck suck suck. Ahhh. Damn.

bye bitches.

2008-02-13T17:28:00.002+08:00

Hey lovelies!

Well, picture above was taken by me last two weeks when I was cleaning up my rabbit's cage.

It was kinda candid actually, but it turned out perfect! Don't you think so? Haha.

School been pretty okay. Tiring, thats all.

The reason that I havent been updating my blog is because I just don't know what to type.

My life is kinda mundane so theres nothing interesting to blog about.

I'll probably end up crapping, which is something Im very good at btw. Haha.

& Oh, tomorrow is Valentine's Day.

I'm not gonna celebrate of course..since I'm single right now and I don't have that special someone to celebrate it with.

Anyway, Valentine's Day is kinda crappy. Why bother celebrating it? Haha.

WTF.

I'm saying this cause I don't have a fucking boyfriend.

Which means, I can't celebrate Valentine's Day! Damn. -______-

Oh oh. No. That doesn't mean I'm desperate to have one.

Frankly, I've never even celebrated Valentine's Day before. Pathethic huh. Haha.

& Guess what.............for the first time ever in my life, I baked brownies which looked like edible burnt faeces (well maybe theres too much cocoa powder). But my friends said that it tasted good. Hehe.

Well, I guess till here then.

Will update more next time.

Anyway,

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY in advance, PEOPLE! :D

The pain of loving you,has taken over me.

and I have tried so hard to resist it.

but no matter what I say, I just can't turn away from you.

2008-01-29T20:06:00.000+08:00

School was pretty average.
I was late for school again, all thanks to Nawal cause she was hoping that I'd be late for school.
-_______-
Yeah, & I have to turn up for detention tomorrow. Wtf.
Mr Zul is still holding on to my ez-link card since I forgot to claim it back from him just now. Don't ask me why he took my ez-link card.
I don't even know why. As usual, skss and their lame stupid rules.
If you're late for school twice, you have to serve for detention and they'll take away your ez-link card.
Gosh.
Anyway, I was kinda disappointed with myself. I received back my chemistry test paper and I only scored 6 out of 25. Tell me this is like so frigging pathetic.
I've never ever failed my chemistry before. Never. Not that I wanted to boast.
But seriously, I've always got at least a B3 for chemistry.
And this year is like a crucial year for me. I don't wanna go to ITE. Pleaseeeeee.
Well, I don't think I should blame myself for failing chemistry. Just put all the blame on Honey Kwok. Mannnnnnn. She's so lousy. Sometimes I just felt like ________________. Bleargh. I don't knooow. Forget it. I really don't have the time to do any revision.
Just the thought of flipping through the pages in my textbook makes me feel like sleeping.
And we have SSP like almost everyday. & This is only, only N levels. Its not even O levels yet.
Imagine, just imagine. Me with pimples all over my face.
Not those teeny weeny ones that I'm having right now. Its like way bigger than my mole, of course.
My nose are gonna be covered by those reddish-pinkish pimples.
Maybe a lil bit on my upper neck. & It looks like as if its gonna burst anytime soon.
Then when it burst, yellowish fluid mixed with blood will flow down from my forehead..... down my nose...... and....
.......into my mouth.
& I'll lick it and thought, "Umm.. Wow. It tastes like heaven."
NOOOOOOOOOO! I'll make sure that will never ever happen!
I apologise if I grossed you guys out. This thing just happen naturally when I let my imaginations run wild.
I am even disgusted with myself. Hahaha. Sorry babes.

Oh by the way, we had photo-taking session just now. Those passport size photo that all skss students have to take every year. -___-
Bet my face will turn out like shit. I don't have any other words to describe how I'll look like so I just use the word 'shit'. Haha.
So well, had chem & physics SSP after school. Then suddenly I was like craving for cheesefries. I just felt like eating them cheesefries.
Those bloody cheesy fries served with mayonnaise.
Yummehhh.
I wanted to buy it so KC accompanied me. Then I talked her into buying cheesefries too. She kept on saying that she's on diet and fats are totally restricted since CNY is coming real soon. But I cracked a lame joke and told her that french fries are vegetable.
She just rolled her eyes at me. But its true right? Fries come from potatoes and potatoes are veggies. See, I'm so smart. -______-
Haha. Okay lame. Then at last KC bought cheesefries too since she coudnt resists the temptation. Haha.

Alright. Guess I'll stop here.
Will update soon.

2008-01-27T14:04:00.000+08:00

BFF <3 (Naw, I love this pic. LOL)

I feel so grouchy right now. I mean, I tend to get all cranky when I don't get enough sleep.
Like now, I'm so worn out.
My vagina hurts so much after an hour of cycling on a bike which happens rarely to me.
I mean, whoever gets vagina affliction after just an hour of cycling?
Well, as a matter of fact. I do. I'm like suffering from the pain right now. The bike seat was like higher than my waist so when I was on the bike, my feets couldn't even reach the ground. Haha. Okay this is so pathetic. When will I grow. Just when....
What shall I do? Any suggestions? Do I have to like, rub my vagina or something?
Okay crap. Sorry people if I offended u or something.
Cause you never know, what you said might insult others. Hah. I can be insensitive sometimes.
So well, I was out the whole day yesterday.
Supposed to go for my maths class but I was kinda lazy so I met up with Nawal at 9 and headed to T3.
Bumped into Sabella. Do you guys still remember her? Sheeesh.
I don't know how to spell her name. But it is pronouced something like, sa-bi-la.
Its that Indian girl who quitted school when we were all in sec 2. (Do I sound racist?) REMEMBER? Gosh. The one that has a big mouth, well.... I think so.
She's kinda busybody. Err.. She used to work at KFC or MacD, Compass Point.
Nevermind. Well, yeah. We saw her. She's currently working at Secret Recipe, right Nawal?
She changed so much that I couldn't even recognised her.
Not until Nawal blurted out her name anyway.
Im quite impressed that Nawal's memory is like way better than mine. Haha. :P Had breakfast cum lunch at Popeye's. Then, from T3, we went to Expo. Theres John Little Sale. Initially, I thought of getting this jeans-like tights but I didnt buy it. So we just looked around and off to Pasir Ris back again.

Met up with Razin at almost 6. Headed to ECP. Went cycling.... & I actually talked a lot.
I had a great day yesterday minus the part when I couldn't stand the pain that I had to get off from the bike.
I wasnt even cycling properly. I almost fell off from the bike. Thank god, I didnt.
Cause if I did, I'd make a fool of myself. Got back home at 11 plus. Saw Alan on the way home.
So as for today, I'll be spending my time finishing up my homework, if I got the time. Or probably, I won't even do it.
Gosh. I still have to do my coursework and hand in my Task Analysis this Friday.

-___________-

Alright.
Till here then.
I guess I'm gonna sleep right now.
Toodles, lovelies.

2008-01-22T17:35:00.000+08:00

There are many things that use up time in our daily lives. I cannot possibly name all. But there is one factor that remains rather discreet till this very day. (Err, is it?)
Its your fucking hairrrrrrrr.
Every morning, after you had your shower, you'll find your hair all messy and decided to comb it. Sometimes, you take like almost half an hour just to get ur hair done. - perfectly neat & tidy. Don't tell me you don't care about your bloody hair.
If you don't care about your hair, why do you comb it? Even people who are bald comb their hair.
For instance, my dad. He's like nearly bald but he combs his hair every morning. Alright.
I have no intentions of insulting my own dad. Sometimes I wished I was hairless though.
So I don't have to trouble myself by shaving my pussy, armpits, legs and everywhere else that hair grows at. If I was bald, I can make my life simple. I could invest my money on wigs.
No problem with that right? New wigs everyday which means, different hairstyles everyday. This is awesome! Hah. Okay, truth be told, I DON'T comb my hair every morning. I mean, I do. Sometimes though. When I got the time.
Is that something unusual or what? I don't even know what makes me suddenly talk about hair. -_____- Sheeesh. Oh yeah, I know why. I was late for school today.
& I didnt even bother to comb my bloody hair.
Just kinda lazy. Yeah whatever. Call me piggy or anything. I won't mind at all.

Hello lovelies! After so many days, finally.. I'm updating my blog. Isn't that a good thing? Haha. I've been busy lately. Yeah, with school and all.
Im only taking bloody N levels this year & I feel so pressurized. This is not even O levels, yet. Anyway, lets talk about school since thats the only place that I go to every single day. I'm trying not to absent myself. I can't afford to miss any lessons, you know.
Had english lesson first thing in the morning.
Mrs Suresh was absent so Mr Singh (yeah, our VP) took over our class. He kinda spoiled my mood cause he kept picking on me.
Bloody hell. I was doing my homework and he was like, "Miss, Can you put that away or you want me to confiscate it?"
Then he started blabbering about this year is an important year for all of us since we're taking N levels & bla3. Homeworks are supposed to be done at home, not in class when theres a lesson going on & bla3.
So well, he really pissed me off. He mocked me in front of the whole class. Thats rude right?
Was I being too sensitive or what?
& He asked me, "Miss, the-girl-who-was-doing-her-homework-just-now.. Tell me whats the definition of motive."
& I was kinda stunned cause I didn't see that coming.
So I just answered, "Its something like.. intentions right? I guess so."
& Then he was like, "AHH. Outstanding! Not bad. Didn't expect the-girl-who-was-doing-her-homework-just-now to answer my question correctly."
I sneered at him when he said that.
He cracked some lame jokes which I didnt find amusing at all. Bahhh. Don't sue me for blogging about my school's VP.
Im so bloooooody scared that I might get expelled from school or something.
Told ya, I'm desperate for an O level cert. Hah.
Next was social studies. B-O-R-I-N-G. Mdm Wee was having menopause, as usual.
Nothing new. Ooops. Does that sound like an insultment? My sincere apologies.
Had Chemistry test after that. & I didnt study. So well, high chance, I'm gonna flung that paper. -______-
I just found out that my maths teacher(I forgot his name.I'm not even 50 & yet, I'm having STM)shares the same birthday as me. Woo. Thats totally interesting. Then he was like, "Lets celebrate our birthday together" Hah. Lame. Muker chibai.
Had SSP after school. Went to HM library alone after SSP & bumped into Khad & Farah, my primary schoolmates. They said that I'm getting thinner & my assets are getting smaller. I swear I've never stuffed any paddings before! Oh pleaaaaaaaaaaase.
I must say that they are really observant. Pretty impressive. Hah.
Will be having F&N practical tomorrow. Im so looking forward to it. :D

I guess till here then.
Take care lovelies.
Thank you for spending your time reading my post. :D
Much love, Naddy.

2008-01-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

Ahh. Fuck. I'm braindead right now. Like totally. I just hate doing compositions. & I have to finish up this essay supposedly by yesterday. What the hell. & Theres Amazing Race on TV right now. I mean, watching Amazing Race is much more important than doing this stupid fucking essay. Grrr. & Ahh guess what. I'AM SLEEPY. -_______- Okay. Probably I'll just watch Amazing Race & do compo later, maybe. If not, I'll just go to bed. I really need some sleep!!!!!! God. Its only the 2nd week of school & I'm feeling so lethargic. & my back hurts so much. Oh fucking fuck. To make things worse, I have PE tomorrow. GOD.

2008-01-08T17:43:00.000+08:00

I love FATTY a.k.a CATTY! :D

I'm in a good mood even though I'm having menses cramp right now, which kinda suck (obviously). -___- Thanks to the doughnuts which contain glucose. & Excessive intake of glucose can lead to hyper-ness. Err.. I made that up. I'm not sure about it. But its possible right? :X

I woke up late this morning & poor Nawal had to wait patiently for me. Haha. I guess its no use saying sorry cause I'm always late. :P

I'm supposed to go for Red Cross today. Err.. yeah, I'm a Red Cross cadet & I'm not proud of being one. Pleaaaase. As usual, I don't care if its gonna affect my conduct grade or whatever if I didnt turn up for my CCA. I mean, Red Cross is just full of crap. Yeah, really.

Anyway, this may sound kinda random but I hate looking at Wong's face. He's facial expression & all - is just so damn annoying.

Oh FYI, he's my current maths teacher. *Sighs. I won't get to see Tan's handsome face anymore. :( Well........ I don't really know what to blog about. I guess I'm gonna doze off soon. & Bloody hell, I have homework to do. Grrrrr.

Aite till here then. Just a short post for now.

Toodles.

I miss seeing your face.

2008-01-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

" A friend in need, is a friend indeed. "
I don't know who came up with that phrase.
How true is that? Or maybe its more to...
" A friend in need, needs a friend indeed. "

Hello lovelies. :D

I'm having an ulcer on my tongue & I'm biting (not literally) it right now while watching HEROES & blogging at the same time. Yeah, multi-tasking. Haha.
School was fine. My class is still stuck on the 4th level with all the sec 3s, which means.. I'll still have to climb up the stairs every day like last year. God. -___-
Anyway, can you believe it.. Murali is my geography teacher instead of Zurina. She's like a photocopy of Phoebe Leong. The way they dress up & all. Oh god. Geography lessons will be much more dreary as ever. & Oh.. She claimed that she have 10 years of experience teaching geography. I doubt thats gonna help me score very well for geography. I've been failing humanities since I was in sec 1. I did make an effort, you see. I just hate humanities so much that I don't even care if I did well or not. But I really have to bother about it this year since I wanna do well for my N levels. Without an N level cert, I'm futureless. Haha. So yeah. I don't wanna end up in ITE either. :

Anyhow, I chatted with this stranger yesterday night. He complimented me, saying that I look hot & stuff. He was okay at first until he suddenly asked, "Are you wearing anything right now?" God. I don't know why guys love asking that kinda question so much. I mean, what are you up to? Sicko. So well, I just replied "Its none of your business."
He answered, " Lemme tell you something. You're no fun at all. No wonder you don't have any boyfriends. " -______-

2008-01-02T19:29:00.000+08:00

Breathe in. Breathe out.
Okay this totally suck. A LOT.
I blogged twice, yesterday & today.
Well, I got disconnected both times but it doesnt really matter since there should be a saved draft.
Problem is, there isnt any.
God. I feel like typing all forms of vulgarities here. Im so peevedddddddddd.
& It was quite a long post. Damn.
But nevermind. Phew.. Here we go. A short post for today till next week or the week after.
-_____-
Went to school with Nawal. I saw a dead rat. So I shrieked. Well, I almost stepped onto it. What do u expect? & The worst part is that the dead rat is a flat as a pancake. Or most probably, way flatter than a pancake. I shrieked, & Nawal shrieked too. But she didnt even notice the flat dead rat. Thats Nawal. I laugh, she laughs. I smile, she smiles. I shout, she shouts. I fall down, she laugh. :X
Did nothing in class except for talking & doodling on papers. Aniysh was being so bitchy during recess time that I felt the urge of giving her one tight slap across her face. But since I'm shorter than her, I have to slap her when she's sitting down or something. AHAH! I had fun during recess though. Miss you guys loads. :D

& I'm really sorry for this late wish. Happy Belated Birthday Syafiqah!!
All the best in everything you do. I love you, gigi besi monster. :D

Well, I guess thats all for now.
Toodles. (:

2007-12-04T01:40:00.000+08:00

Missed me? LOL.
Ahh nevermind.
I kinda miss school.
I can't wait for school reopens.
Gaaahh. -_____-
So what shall I blog about? I'm bored & I can't sleep.
Currently I'm addicted to late Minnie Riperton's song - Loving you.
Its an old song, really. Like, in the 70s I think.
I kept singing this verse
"Loving you is easy cause you're beautiful. & Making love to you is all I wanna do. Loving you is more than just a dream come true. & Everything that I do, is out of loving you. La la la la la... la la la la la... " Hahahaha.
Its totally annoying. Seriously. So you must be grateful that you're not staying in the same flat as me.
Check this out if you want to. [:
Ps : Nawal, I know you're gonna laugh your butt off once you play this video. Better don't eh. Its a nice song. HAHAHA!

& Guess what, I bumped into an old friend recently.
The story goes like this... (ehem.. i know theres no need for this story-telling. but anyway, here it goes)
I went out with my sis the other day.
When we were talking, I noticed this guy in red kept staring at me.
He passed by me anyway & said, "Nadiah." He was grinning.
So I was like, do I know this guy? He looked kinda familiar.
But well, I just muttered "Eh hi." & walked off.
Later then, I realised that he was Vikash.
Yeah, exactly. Among all people, I had to see his face. -____-

Till here then.
Take care lovelies.

when will i ever get to see you again?

2007-12-02T01:36:00.000+08:00

2007-11-30T00:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEETEST, HOT GF!

Love you babe. Muahcks! :D

2007-11-27T02:02:00.000+08:00

Time check - 2:22 AM

Blogger macam chicken say goodbye cause I cant upload any pictures.
Grrr..

I've been thinking of so many stuff lately so thats the reason why I have difficulties sleeping.
*Sighs
I tried to force myself to sleep but my mind just refused to shut down.
I keep thinking of so many things.
What the heck.
Hahaha.
So well.. Usually,I'll end up sleeping around 5 am. & I'll wake up at 12 pm.
Not bad eh. I did nothing much today.
Cleaned up my rabbit's cage & my tortoises so-called tank, as usual.
Then I wanted to go back to sleep. (Like pig eh?) Hahaha.
But my mom suddenly came into my room and asked me to mop the house.
& So I did. I mopped the whole house & went online after that.
Putri texted me & asked me to accompany her to the mosque cause she wanted to take her madrasah report book.
Then at last she cancelled it cause she had something to do.
-_____-
Spent my evening watching Lovewrecked.

Do you know how it feels like..
When you try your best but you don't succeed?
When you get what you want but not what you need?
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep?
And when the tears come streaming down your face..
When you lose something you cannot replace?
When you love someone but it goes to waste?
COULD IT BE WORSE?

2007-11-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 6/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?

You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life.

But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it.

Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career.

Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

How Happy Are You, Really?

You Are a Pretty Good Liar

Your lies are somewhat believable, but sometimes you get caught.

Work on keeping your body language and emotions calm. And you'll be a better liar in no time!

Are You a Good Liar?

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.

In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!

And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.

Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

How Sarcastic Are You?

You Are More Mild Than Wild

You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are.

Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.

Are You Hot?

Lol.

Sorry. I'm just bored.

Totally bored.

*Sighs

2007-11-24T02:52:00.000+08:00

Lol. Its 3:11 am. & I'm not asleep yet.
& I'm supposed to update my blog. Hahaha.
So well... Today was like a reunion. Err.. So-called.
Cause its been so long since we actually met up & had a great chat.
Nawal & Me bought Niysh famous amos cookies as a gift cause we're kinda broke.
Sorry Niysh! We'll get you a proper gift next time aite. :D
We arrived at the beach first. Waited for Niysh & her sis/cousin (im not sure which one. LOL) & Babs.
And ahh yeah. We did nothing much at the beach. Just talked.
Then we got kinda bored and Babs suggested that we should go cycling or roller blading.
& I was like, eh why not? I want I want!!! Haha. Cause the last time I cycled was with that guy which was like a few months ago & its been years since I last go roller blading. But then at last, we headed to Tampines Mall. *Sighs & It was like totally packed. Thats the reason why I hate going to TM. Haha. Found some seats at LJS. I was feeling kinda hungry at first then suddenly I don't have the mood to eat. So just 'watched' Niysh, her sis/cousin & Babs eat. Nawal & Me headed home like almost 30 mins later.

& GUESS WHAT? THERES A FUCKING BIG FLYING COCKCROACH IN MY ROOM JUST NOW.
& I FEEL LIKE A WONDER WOMAN CAUSE I MANAGED TO SMASH IT WITH A BROOM & ITS AS FLAT AS A PANCAKE. :S NEVERTHELESS, I'M HAPPY THAT ITS DEAD & I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I'M BRAVE ENOUGH TO KILL A COCKCROACH. IMPRESSIVE!

I know, what the hell?

2007-11-24T02:36:00.000+08:00

I don't know why I'm doing this. I'm reading my old testimonials.
& I came across this testimonial from late Raudhah.
I missed her. Even though we just met once before but I felt like as if I've known her for so long.
R.I.P Raudhah.

2007-11-20T01:34:00.000+08:00

Truth hurts. Sure it really does. It hurts a lot more than what I expected.
I would have cried myself to sleep tonight.
But I don't see the point of doing that. Its worthless.
Its not gonna change anything & make everything turn out right anymore. Its over.
I made him do it. And he did it.
Its the greatest feeling I've ever had in my entire life.
Damn it. Of course I'm kidding.
I feel like as if theres thousands of knives jabbing in my heart. Okay thats exaggerating.
The feeling is totally undescribable. He's not coming back. He's not coming back.
I feel like crap. And he said those three words that I've been yearning to hear it from him.
At last. But its a little too late. And I don't think he meant it.
If he really did, he wouldn't have done what I asked him to. And he wouldn't even have the balls to hurt my feelings.
But it doesnt matter anymore.
Why would it be? I wanted him to tell me straight that he didnt need me anymore.
I was hoping he would reply that he needed me more than anything else.
*Laughing my booty off*
Who am I kidding? Myself? Haha.
& well, he did what I asked him to do. I can't really remember exactly what. Cause I already deleted the message. Can't stand reading it again.
It goes something like, "I don't need you, Nadiah. Not now, never."
Ahh. Nicely phrased, don't ya think?
But nevermind. I don't need any sympathy. Im used to being hurt, I guess.
Thats why I said I suck a lot in relationship & yeah, none of my relationships ever worked out, in case you guys are wondering.
So well, I guess this is the last guy that I ever wanna associate with.
Err.. For the time being. I'm so done with all this shits.
Hear me? Tell me that I'm a total jerk, full of craps if I were to ever have any relationships again. Alright? Deal.

Time check. Its already 2:10 AM. & I feel so fucked up. Trynna swallow this reality that he doesn't need me anymore. Ouch. Did I tell you that it hurts so much? Yes, indeed. It really worked on me now.
I'm not gonna crawl back to him ever again. Even though, I'm missing him like fuck like totally crazy.

2007-11-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

Whooopeeedooo!
At last I've got something to blog about. Like finally!
Hahaha.
So I just had conference call with Naw, Niysh & Del.
It was totally awesome. Nawal wanted to make prank calls to anyone but didn't know exactly what to say to them so I suggested that we should just phone them & say in unison
" Ho Ho Ho ! Merry Christmas ! "
Lol. I know its totally lame. Ran out of ideas. & Ahh. Mission accomplished. Thanks to Nawal for finally, having the boobies to do this 'task'. & to Niysh & Del for joining in the fun even though Del kept quiet most of the time. Haha. Its been so long since we last had a conference call together. The last time was like last year, I guess. Hmm.. & Niysh got freaked out when we talked about Fatimah Rockers. What the hell sia. -_____- Hahaha.

& My lil sis is extremely annoying. She's totally obsessed with Joey Zehr.
She wanted to look like him & be like him.
What the heck? Yeah I know. She's retarded just like me. I guess it runs in the blood.
Too bad my parents don't really show their true colours when the fact is, they are just a bit sick in the head. OH MY GOD! I can't believe I just said that. Ahh. You know I don't really mean it. Even if I'm not that close to them I won't have the heart to say such things about them. But well.. Let's just look at it this way. Everyone is crazy in some way.

Hmmm.. Okay. I guess thats about it.

Toodles for now.

2007-11-13T01:21:00.000+08:00

what can i say? retarded as ever. -_-

Im so full. I just had my supper. (Woke up at 12 plus, so that explains why) Haha.

Alright.. Let's see.... Theres nothing much to blog about actually.

I still have classes to attend even though its already holiday!

I know. Its total crap. Only people like me would want to turn up for classes.

Haha.

Well I slacked with Nawal in the afternoon. Just had a chit-chat session, like we always do.

Haha. Then Nawal was listening to Jenny by Click 5. I sang that song but instead of Jenny, I replaced it with M.R's name. & Nawal sang along with me. Haha.

& YES! I managed to finish up The Kite Runner in a day. Thats an achievement, of course.

Haha.

& I'm done watching Kyle XY season two since last two or three weeks. Damn. I love Dallas!

So in case you guys haven't heard of Kyle XY, do find out about it. Its a great show. My favourite man! Even Nawal got hooked. HAHA!

There you go. My man.*SCREAMS* Oh stop it. I know he's hot. Sucha pity that he's not as well-known as Wentworth Miller.

I lost a special friend.

2007-11-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

I seriously need a new blogskin.
Argh. But problem is, I couldn't find any pretty blogskins.
Maybe I'll do it tomorrow. Thats if I'm done reading The Kite Runner.
Cause I told Nawal that I can finish reading that novel in a day.
LOL.
So yeah, must prove it to her. That novel doesn't really interests me but I'll read it anyway since Nawal wanted me to.
Oh by the way, BAD NEWS. My blogger is back to square one.
What the hell.
Did I blog about watching Bee Movie?
Hah. I watched it with Nawal the other day.
Initially, we headed to bishan cause Nawal wanted to find some books. Then couldnt find any so we went to catch bee movie. Its not a great movie except that theres a few parts that managed to make me laugh my booty off. Overall I'll rate it 6/10. Not worth my 8 bucks actually. Haha.

2007-11-07T01:12:00.000+08:00

My rabbit. Im not even sure whether its a male/female.

I'll check it out tomorrow.

My 8 going on to 9 year old tortoises.
As usual, its this guy again.
& Ahh. You seldom see this horny kitty on my site.

Done.
I was so happy when I found out that I don't have any probbies with blogger anymore.
I wanted to blog. But now, I don't feel like blogging.
I just feel so crappy.
Guess I should just force myself to sleep.
Its already 1:40 am & I have school tomorrow.
Damn it. I already didnt turn up for school twice this week so I cant afford to skip classes again.

2007-10-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

So since exams are officially over, our school organised this kinda elective module for the sec 3N, 3T & 4N.
Its like hairstyling, music composer, image consultant & bla3.
& Well, I chose Image Consultant cause I thought it might turned out to be kinda fun.
You know, doing all those make-ups & stuff.
But the first two lessons were a real bore.
I could have fallen asleep but I don't wanna seem rude so I just force myself to pay attention.
& at last, after two dead lessons, we had fun by doing facial on our own.
I mean, imagine for the previous two lessons, all we did were to just sit in the music room & listened to some crap on skincare.
It WAS totally boring, I tell you.
I kept on yawning.
Then we were like laughing at each other cause all of us looked funny with the facial mask on our face.
Next week we will be having a photography session on Monday & lunch at Swensen's on Tuesday.
I'm totally brain dead cause I've no idea what to wear on Monday.
We are supposed to wear an outfit that is suitable for office work.
& then we have to dress up on Tuesday. -_-" So troublesome.

Anyway, I was super elated when I got back my overall results.
I didn't do that well actually but I'm kinda happy cause I managed to pass all my subjects.
& This is my very first time I passed Humanities, which is the subject that I hated most.
But then it was just a borderline pass. Nevermind that. I'm still happy though.
Then when school ended, I saw ________.
The moment I saw him, my legs started to go all wobbly. WTH. Okay crap.
Didn't expect to see him after so long cause its been some time since I last saw him in school.

I was craving for bubble tea suddenly since Mimmah mentioned about it in the morning like how she used to drink bubble tea almost everyday.
So went over to Sweet Talk & something embarassing happened.
I felt like a total fool. Nawal wanted Milk Tea & I wanted to get myself Chocolate Ice Blend but instead, I asked for Chicken Ice Blend. What the hell was I thinking. -_-" A slip of e tongue? :S I thought it was okay to humiliate myself in public once in a while (weird, i know). I guess this was the worst day of my life. Err.. No. Not that bad. Maybe my worst day for this month. Haha. But hang on, guess what? The worst part of the whole incident was that... I took the drinks without paying it. I didn't do it on purpose. I just forgot to pay. I felt like knocking my head on the wall. Haha. Like idiot sia.

Its currently 12:22 A.M. & I see flying roaches in my room. Damn disgusting sia. & Faizal is a super asshole cause he kept on disturbing me bout the roaches flying above my head. -_-"

tell me why do I still think of you when I was the one who wanted this to end.

2007-10-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

I guess I'm being too easy eh?
Probably. Must be. SHOULD be.
Ahh. Whatever.

2007-10-07T13:07:00.000+08:00

Thanks to : My sisters, Ladettes, Ahmad Danial, Danial Ahmad, Marcus, Bee, Dee, Khadijah, Farah, Jeremy, Iwan.......... FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISH! Hehehe.
I was kinda touched by those who publicised my name on their blogs wishing me a happy birthday. Referring to Miza, Nawwy & Aniysh. Not forgetting Marcus who sent me an email just to make sure its my birthday today. How sweeeeeet. Love you guys! Muahcks!

LOL. I didnt know what I did to this picture till it turns out this way. Haha. Funny.
Hmm... Another two more papers to go & I'm done with exams!
Woohooo.
Don't feel like studying ah. Chemistry paper tomorrow. -_-"
& To make things worse, Hari Raya is coming up real soon. I'm so not looking forward to it.

melancholy
im suffering,
can't stop the sorrow from tormenting me.

2007-09-29T22:16:00.000+08:00

I don't know why. I just feel so pissed.
ARGGGGGGGH!
I wanna be my old self.
At least, I had real fun. Why do I have to change myself now? I mean, I'm still young. I just wanna enjoy life to the fullest. I don't wanna change the way I live my own life. I don't wanna be what I am now. I gotta be kidding myself. I changed, because my parents want me to. So in other words, they are like forcing me to be somebody that I don't wanna be. What the heck? I just suck. ALOT. God give everyone a chance to repent. I will repent of course, when the time is right. Okay call me an ungrateful person or whatever. You will understand if you were in my situation. I'm leading a miserable life. Sometimes I wonder why I'm still breathing when all I did was to break my parents' heart. I'm the black sheep of the family. Thats what my mom said anyway.........

Well, I just kinda got back home. Break fast with Nawal. We had a great time eventhough we somehow got lost. We went to 6 places in almost 7 hours. Haha. I'm having bubble-like blisters & it hurts alot. Have to get up early tomorrow morning. Exams start on Monday. I guess I'm gonna screw up my SS paper. Its impossible to study 6 essays in a day. I gotta go off and get some sleep now. I'm totally worn out.

toodles.

Theres so much I want in life. Including having you by my side.

2007-09-24T19:32:00.000+08:00

School was so-so.
Theres really nothing to blog about eh.
Its always about school, school, school.
Okay nevermind.

Had F&N lesson first thing in the morning.
I noticed that Mdm Dewi kept on staring at me the moment I stepped into the classroom.
So I asked her, what's wrong?
She said, "Nadiah, how come you look so fresh? Its like almost everytime I see you in school, you look so fresh."
I was like, what kind of question is that? Most of my friends told me that I've got "steamy" eyes which makes me seem like a horny bustard.
I replied her, "HUH?! Isn't that a good thing?"
So she was like, 'err ya.. I didn't say its a bad thing. Of course its a good thing la huh.'
& she went on and on. Saying that she like girls who are a lil bit vain. Referring to me la, of course. Then she said she likes the way I keep my hair neat and tidy. And.... she complimented on my eyebrows. Thats the first thing female teachers notice about me, always. Haha. So I was like damn flattered already lah. Well, F&N is one of my favourite subject thats why I always blog about what happened during F&N lesson. Hah. & We didn't study for the whole four periods which we were supposed to spend on practical. Instead, Mdm Dewi told us about her history & stuff. Its quite interesting to know that she've gone through alot. I can't believe she used to be a prefect! & anyway, I think she look older than her age.

Other lessons were pretty boring, as usual.
Had Social Studies SSP after school. Felt like dozing off but Mdm Wee's voice made me stay wide awake.

I find some people really kental sak. Kental babengsssss!

2007-09-22T23:56:00.000+08:00

Shit. Blogger is really getting on my nerves!
Alright. I'll make this post short.
So yeah, I just got back home from grandma's place.
Hadi is damn cute & adorable lah. & VERY irritating, too. He loves to smack my butt. -_-"
I wished I had a lil brother. But he must have curly hair.
I love guys with curly hair lah. Like damn cool ehh. Especially Nawal's bro.
He've gt nice soft curls seh. I wanna marry him but then Nawal surely won't want me to be her sister-in-law. Grrr.

Don't think I'm that easy. I just needed somebody.

2007-09-21T13:33:00.000+08:00

Something terrible happened this morning.
I don't have to mention it here but the incident really got me worried sick & it was all I could think about.

Anyway, school was fine.
After three days, Nawal finally came to school.
I missed her. Heh.

Had practical for F&N lesson.
Baked chocolate chip & almond cookies which doesn't look like one.
We were supposed to make the mixture creamy but it turned out the other way round.
I haven't tried it out yet. Wonder how it tastes like.

Alright.
I gotta go back to school now. I'm already late for detention.
Toodles.

2007-09-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

I LOVE TODAY!
You guys really made my day.
Sayang korang duer ekor. HAHA.

Have to study for SS & Physics test.
ZZzZzZzzzz....

2007-09-15T00:55:00.000+08:00

Obviously, I'm THAT bored.Thats why I did this stupidity test.
& Unbelievably, I passed! Haha.
So I guess, I'm certified smart huh?
At least I know when Singapore gained independence. Next time, ask a more wiser question please. Heh.

Umm.. I'm doing nothing much now.
Except that I don't feel like sleeping.
How bout playing some dumb asshole games till I get sick & tired of it?
Maybe I'll play some later.

School was fine except that I thought some idiots took my pencilbox.
But guess what? I actually left it in class. -______-"
Who would want to take it anyway? Haha.
Ahhh yes. I'm like 1cm taller now. Hell yes, of course its a big deal.
I mean, Nadiah is growing. So that's good news right? Heh.
In case you guys are wondering how tall I am, I'm only standing at 147 cm tall.
Don't laugh. Not funny.
Wanted to go CP after school & while we were at the bus stop, I nearly tripped over
the _________ (what do you call it eh? drainage cover? HAHA) cause it was kinda loose.
& then, I'm supposed to you know, make that kinda sounds when you nearly fall. Instead, Nawal was like "AHHHHHHHH!", making those sounds for me. How considerate of her. *big grin*
So err.. yeah. We kinda got some attention for a few minutes or so.

Exams are around the corner. & I really have to brush up on my humanities cause I really suck at it. & Oh yeah, fasting month already started since yesterday so... Happy Fasting to all Muslims! & I'm proud of us (you know who you guys are) cause we are able to fight the temptation/urge from doing stuff that we used to do like almost every week. Haha. You know, when we hang out at Nawal's place. Ehem-ehem. Again, its nothing gotta do with sexual activities.

i live my own life. so just take care of yours.

2007-09-11T01:34:00.000+08:00

Its 1:34 a.m. & I can't sleep. I guess, I'll be sleeping late again.
Currently chatting with M.C. He've got lots of story-telling to do.
Its been some time since I last talked to him so kinda miss him.

School was a real bore. & exams coming up real soon. Like damn fast ehh.
Anyway, we didnt have any lessons for the whole day so I crapped with Kam Choo.
From childhood friends to schoolmates to teachers to marriage to sex.

KC : Diah, you know ah.. Last time when I was small, I thought kissing can lead to pregnancy.
Me : *Speechless*

2007-09-09T00:34:00.000+08:00

Damn it. School's starting on Monday & I'm feeling so sick. This totally sucks man.
I feel like scratching my throat, hoping that the itchyness will go away. Yes, I'm having a very bad sore throat since yesterday. & a blocked nose plus chapped lips.
-_____-"

& Ahh.. I think my dad is a lil bit crazy. He wanted to paint the whole house white.
"To make our house look more bigger," as he phrased it. He's so damn right man.
Anyway, its 12:53 AM right now & I couldn't sleep cause I think one of my cat peed on my shirt
while I was sleeping earlier on. I just couldn't stand the smell.
I can't wait for the clock to strike 4 PM cause I wanna watch Kyle XY.
Oh by the way, I'm loving REVALINA cause the short guy look so damn cute & he sings well too. Arggghhhh!

Man. I'm hating school holidays. Cause now I really don't feel like coming to school. Just wanna stay at home & drool & soak my pillow ; like I always do. *big grin* MUAHAHA!

blast your stereos real loud baby & groove to the music!

PS : Oh bullshark. I've not yet done with my malay project. Damnnnn.

2007-09-07T16:46:00.000+08:00

Pictures above were taken a few years back. Was browsing through my photobucket & saw this. So.. just thought of uploading it up here. Hehe. I'm getting bored looking at the same pictures in my friendster. Wanted to take a snap or two of myself but just couldn't be bothered cause well, I think I don't look good in pictures. & I don't exactly smile, more like smirking. Fake smile. Okay whatever.
& Ahh.. I can't stand it when people dress up the same way. I know. I know. I should just concern bout myself. But its just so sickening. *roll eyes*

This Is Why Im Hot
This Is Why Im Hot
I Didnt Change Up
Just To Get What I Got
This Is Why Im Hot
This Is Why Im Hot
Cuz Im Da Same Girl
Jes Makin It To Da Top
This Why Im Hot
Cuz I Aint Fakein
Aint Actin
I Aint Sellin Out On My Friends
So This Is Why
This Is Why
This Is Why Im Hot

Just bear with me. This song managed to get stuck in my head. -___-"

Those were blissful and memorable years. Now what have I got?

2007-09-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

I was lost in the middle of the jungle, god knows what I was doing there. & Out of a sudden, three enormous elephants were after me. No. They didn't look like elephants, more like rhinoceroses.
Maybe a mixed breed of the elephants plus rhinoceroses, if theres such thing.
They looked harmless but I guess they were trying to attack me. So I did what a woman with brains should do instead of staring into the space waiting for some prince charming to come and save their lives. In this case, MY LIFE.
In that dream I was running for my life, bare-bodied. I thought I was doing great cause when I turned around (and still running), I realized that those creatures were out of sight.... until suddenly I ran into a tree. My sight became a complete blur & I was sweating like hell. I could feel those sweats streaming down the deep valley of my bosom. *Ehem ehem* I know someone had lifted me up, carrying me in hairy arms. I tried to open my eyes but I just couldn't & few minutes later, I blacked out.
It was a surreal dream, of course. But anyway, I was awakened by mom's screeching voice saying that a friend was on the line. Guess who called? Haha. Annisa! So she kinda spoilt my dream but it's okay cause I don't even wanna know the ending of the stupid, lame dream that I had.

So hey, missed me? Its been some time since I last blogged.
I felt like as though I'm one of those N or O level candidates cause I just couldn't spare some time to update my dreary, nearly cast off blog. Yeah, you may say that I'mma busy woman cause I guess, I pretty am. Haha. Nah.. Its just that my life is kinda mundane, so theres nothing much to blog about. So here's a recap of some stuff that happened last week, which is so yesterday.

Thursday

Had teachers' day celebration & some performances which weren't impressive at all.
I thought M.R. looked hot on stage but his voice was an exception.
& I nearly lost my voice cause I was cheering when the teachers got on stage to receive some crap stuff (or whatever you guys call it). I guess, it sounded pretty much like I was shouting and screaming on top of my lungs instead of cheering. But it doesn't matter cause I had fun though until I got my class t-shirt or jersey, whichever. I was so pissed off cause it was a polo shirt & I don't look good in polo t-shirt, mind you. & the design on the shirt was like a piece of shit. I paid 16 bucks for it & I got a red polo t-shirt with some monkey-like logo on the front-right, and my name with number 09 glued there in gold colour. & Oh yeah, of course I was peeved. The idiot didn't even show me how the shirt would turn out like, before I even got it. Mannnnnn. Whoever who's in the right state of mind would surely get pissed off, seriously! But theres nothing much I could do. Its obviously, impossible for me to ask for a refund. So I guess I had to give in & wear it just for a day. No sweat.

Friday

SKSS can be such a pain in the ass. Our sports day was held at CCAB which is located at Bukit Timah. So we had to go all the way there from hougang. It was so troublesome but no choice. I didn't participate in any of the events cause firstly, I was just plainly lazy & I don't wanna associate with any of those bitches. I would prefer being a loner rather than to HAVE to mingle with them. No way, ever! Intend to go to Far East Plaza but we somehow got lost. Found our way back and had lunch at LJS. Annisa met her boyf after that. & I had some adventure with Nawal, again. Haha. Noooooo. Not any of those sexual activities, you pervert!

PS : Good luck for your N level Danny! (:
& errr, to you-know-who... if you're starting to hate me, then just bug off my site. Don't even bother reading my posts. Your cooperation is greatly appreciated, thank you.

2007-08-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

Its always about this guy here.
He pisses me off easily but I can still tolerate him.
Wonder where the fuck I got this much patience & stay cool most of the time whenever he tries to annoy me.
If its for some other guys, I would have made their lives a hell on earth.
Damn these feelings that I had for him.
Notice I used the word HAD? So probably, I've lost my interest in him.
Probably.
I just couldn't stand it anymore. I've had enough of those shits he gave me.
It's always me who gave in. Okay no, maybe sometimes he's the one who's giving in.
But hey, what do you feel like when you think that a guy treats you like a trash when all you wanna do is try to please him?
I mean, he's just using you for whatever reasons he might have & possibly, ditch you afterwards.
Now that makes me sound so pathetic.
Liking a guy who's not worth at all is totally absurd.
So yeah, gotta agree with his friend that my going after him is loony & way out of line.
I guess I have to stop being so foolish or I'll end up getting laughed at.
Problem is, I just type everything here for the sake of letting out my feelings when the actual fact is, I won't even try to kill these feelings.
Well I guess, sometimes, emotions take control of you & you don't even mean whatever crap you said.

2007-08-20T16:35:00.000+08:00

FCUK U. = FUCK YOU!
Okay lame.
Today sucks cause I didn't get to see M.R for the whole day.
& Can you believe this..... I didn't get to answer all the questions for english paper cause I spent half an hour daydreaming.. looking out of the window, counting some birds.
This is totally crazy!
& I'm so gonna screw physics paper cause I got mixed up between emitter & absorber.
So all these while, I've been thinking that emitter has the same meaning as absorber.
Now thats purely dumb, I know. You don't have to mention it.
Man.. Should have listened to Selva in class.
I feel like killing myself.
GOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDD!
Argh. Stop it. Voices in my brain, HELLO?! Can you shut up please? Stop calling me stupid cause I'm not. Just plainly dumb.
Okay sorry. Just can't help it.
Favourite pastime = CRAPPING.
Tomorrow's paper : Chem & Maths.
Wish me luck guys. HEHEHEHE.

The dreams in which I'm dying,
are the best I've ever had.

2007-08-15T18:40:00.000+08:00

What am I to you?
A friend or a foe?
If you call me a friend, then why are you keeping things from me?
I may not be the best listener or simply, don't fit the bill of being a great adviser.. but all I wanna be is someone whom you can confide in.. someone you can trust. Sometimes I wonder, what do I lack of as a friend whom you can count on to.
I've always thought I could cheer you up whenever you're down.... It hurts me alot to know that I have failed as a friend. To let you go through it all, all by yourself. I apologise for not being there for you when you needed me the most. (I'll pretend as though I'm someone important to you) I couldn't find any ways to let all my feelings out. Blogging doesnt really help. I don't know how to put it into words. Maybe I should just keep it to myself. Shouldn't burden you more than you already are. I really need a break.
Toodles.

emotions make you cry sometimes.

2007-08-13T15:57:00.000+08:00

Don't Mind Me. I'm just BRAINSICK. -.-"

I feel so fucked up.
I already sold the whole SANA tickets that cost 20 bucks & FT said that I only gave her 14 bucks. I returned her those tickets since last three weeks, you know. & I saw her counting the money also & today, she told me that I didn't give her the right amount. God knows how pissed off I was that I felt like strangling her. & she told me to check whether I left the rest of the money at home. How dumb. I'm sure she must have misplaced it somewhere or getting it all mixed up with the other money that she has collected.
Wtf. & now, I won't be getting any CIP points. I had a very bad headache in the morning & someone just have to ruin my mood. Thanks to FT. Today really suck, alot!

2007-08-05T22:04:00.000+08:00

I've been feeling so restless lately. Don't know why. Hmm.. The picture above is my cat. Its a white female siamese. I don't know what she was up to.... maybe checking out some birdies. Okay lame. -.-" So I had religious class today and I bumped into Mr Zul & daughter. I thought he wouldn't be able to recognise me cause I was wearing tudung but then, he waved at me. and yeah, I gave him a wide smile showing off my big teeth. :D I spent almost the whole day

sleeping, munching & watching some dvds. Black sheep was hilarious. I couldn't stop laughing. Its such a lame movie especially the part when humans transformed into sheeps. Talk about having a bad storyline, bad effects and lame acting. Thats what you get when you combine all of them into a crappy 'horror' movie involving sheeps who kill humans. Okay seriously, funny. Wonder why it was rated M-18.

Wish that I could be your lucky charm.
I will keep you far away from harm.

2007-08-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. I'm currently planning to do a class reunion for P4/5.
Semangat kental ahhh! I got to track only a few of my mates.
What disheartened me most was that Baqir wants me to forget about my plan as no one would be interested to go for the gathering & my effort might just go to waste.
Anyway, I'll still carry on with my plan. Its hard to track them now... But I'll try to.. Just have to ask around...
School was okay for me. Nothing extraordinary happened. Except that my chem teacher made a fool of herself. & Most of my classmates laughed at her. They were kinda bad ah. She walked around the whole class with her bra strap falling down & coming out of her tight-fitting blouse's sleeve. It was kinda weird that she didn't even realise it. Oh yeah, of course I told her about it & she was like, 'Oh!'. Thats it. & carried on with her lesson. I was expecting her to blush or something. Hah. -.-"
I went home straight after school. Thought of doing some revision but ended up dozing on my bed after finished reading Heaven's Gift. & I watched Aquamarine again, for the second time. I like it alot cause the movie is kinda sweet. Oh god. I gotta go. My dad been asking me to go to sleep as he wanna use the comp. Kao peh ahh.

2007-07-30T18:51:00.000+08:00

School was fine. Had practical today. We baked kuih bingkar & naga sari ; a malay traditional cake.
It doesn't look appetizing at all. My classmates tried it & they said that it was tasteless.
So I threw it away cause obviously my friends wouldn't even want to try it. Haha.
Maybe I really need to take up some cooking course.
Cause I don't really cook good food. Then.. maybe when I'm good at it, I might consider being a chef. Hahaha.

Mdm Zurina made us write a letter to our parents during CME period to show our appreciation to them & stuff like that.
It was kinda saddening, well.. to me thats it. I nearly cried but I managed to hold my tears back. I think I'm kinda lucky that at least, I have parents eventhough they are not the kind of parents that I've always wanted. Come to think of it, there are alot more kids out there who are not as lucky as I am. Maybe I should just stop being too sensitive. There's no point anyway. I just don't know how to put my feelings into words. Ahh. Forget it.

sometimes i feel like i'm living in my own world, my own creation.

2007-07-26T20:05:00.000+08:00

I desperately wanna put up some pictures here but as usual,
blogger is just jealous that I have pretty pictures. -.-"
Oh well anyway, school was fun.
I mean, seriously fun. Cause yeah, I laughed alot.
I was so hyper after the egg yolk incident during recess time that I got carried away & crapped alot in class.
I was kinda happy with myself cause I managed to make some of my classmates laugh at my jokes.
So thats a good thing. :D
After school, went over to Nawal's place with Nisa.

2007-07-23T21:39:00.000+08:00

Its kinda bad to ignore someone just because he's not good looking.
But this guy here has a peculiar behaviour which makes me feel uncomfortable. The way he look at me ; it kinda creeped me out. Never fail to nudge me whenever I go online. Always check out for me in school. He even asked me to print out his picture & keep it handy so that I can always remember how he look like. He wanna know more about me. Non-stop complimenting on how I look. The way he talk to me make him seem like a psychopatic. I don't know.. I just got disgusted sometimes. God knows why. & the worst thing is, he's my schoolmate. Haah. So theres no way I can avoid him. How do I define him? Butterball(for his case, its an over-baked one. ouch. okay thats mean.), lame, annoying.... Hmmm... what else? Basically, he've been acting all weird lately. & I just can't stand it. Don't get me wrong. I don't mind being friends with anyone even if he's physically disabled or anything as long as he knows his limit. I just wanna be friends. Nothing more.

I feel so sick & irritated. Seriously, having to blow my nose every five minutes is a real chore. & everytime when I sneeze, theres translucent slimy mucus coming out from my nose. I'm having running nose. So just imagine... me, with my retarded smile & red blotching nose.... & mucus flowing out from my nose endlessly. Ewww. Gross. Thats a totally sickening description. Haaah. Man. Nadiah, you're so disgusting!

there's no point going any further than this.

2007-07-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

Frankly, I've always thought that spending time with some ex bfs is just a waste of time.
Be it talking on the phone, meeting up & so on & so forth.. bla3.
But well, I had a good chat with my ex which is also a close friend of mine.
We gossiped alot. Well, we always do. Its just that it was totally different this time.
Some guys are great company when it comes to bitching about someone else.
I'm glad that we are still friends after everything that had happened.
Thank god.

So yesterday someone just had to spoil my morning. My SATURDAY morning, to be exact.
Imagine. You were watching some awesome show on TV (which you don't get to watch every weekends) when someone phoned you & expect you to email stuff within 5 minutes. God knows how frustrated I was that I felt like screaming at her on the phone. I don't care whether I have to respect her or whatsoever.
Talk about respecting the older ones & responsibility. Why don't you mirror yourself first.
You're not responsible enough. You just want to make things easy for you. You see, I've already submitted the recipes way before the dateline. She could have checked her pigeon hole on that day itself. & She told me that she didn't get the recipes & that I HAVE to bring my own ingredients on Monday for my practical. How the hell am I supposed to buy my the ingredients when I don't even have an extra copy of the recipes? Thats way too much. Hell yes. She pissed me off. & At last, I made her buy any ingredients & I'll cook whatever I can. As long as it look like a dish. -.-" I want Mdm Dewi back laaaaaaaaaar. That new teacher sucks. She tried so hard to be nice to us. But too bad, we still hate her. Err.. Hate is a strong word to use. But nevermind. It doesnt really matter.

2007-07-21T01:06:00.000+08:00

No wonder I'm having lots & lots of pimples.
I'll get so stressed up just because someone didn't reply my message.
Then I'll keep asking myself why that someone didn't reply.
Damn kental kan.
Oh god.
-.-"

Oh yes. So our school celebrated Racial Harmony Day today.
The school concert wasn't that great though.
Only the performance by MLDDS got my full attention.
Hah. I prefer this dance compared to the one on last year's Cultural Nite.

I'll be editting some pictures & upload it some time.
I've send some pictures to Nawal. Check it out in her blog yeah.
I'm still wondering why I look fugly in pictures.
Man.. Seriously. I don't look good & it's always me who screw up the almost-perfect picture.
I gotta agree with my mates at last. I have BIG TEETH & a small(its small, right?) gap between my front teeth. Hahahaha. Funny lah.
Why do I have to be so self-conscious?
Who cares anyway whether I look good or not.
Haha. Well.... I don't know. Maybe its just human nature. Tell me who doesnt want to look good?!

So what else... Hmmm... Oh yeah. I didnt turn up for RC today. Haha.
& Theres this guy in school who look real hot. I mean, damn hot. Eh Nawal eh?
Hot kaaaaaan. Tak kesah ah dier keling ke ape. Tapi still, die hot kannnn. M.R. pon hottttttt banget!!! gerammmmmmm. Okay sorry. Da start mentel. -.-"
Its already 2 a.m. in the morning thats why I'm hyper.
Okay guess I gotta go.
Take care loveliesss.

Its not the same anymore, if you noticed.

2007-07-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

Ahh. Okay blogger sucks. I mean, seriously. Gaahh.

Had RC today. We went to this old folks home. Can't remember the name of the place.
But the place looked kinda spooky. Its Friday the 13th, babes. & I made fun of ghosts almost the whole day. I wonder what will happen to me when the clock strikes 12 A.M. Hahaha. Okay lame. So I did some cleaning in one of the room with Syafiqah. We didnt do much, just more to chit-chatting. I asked Syaf.. "Do you know why the window screens in this bedroom are opaque?" Then she was like.. "HUH? Why?" I answered.. "Because they are afraid that those old people might get to see some ghosts & ended up having heart attack. So better be safe than sorry." Okay that was total crap. Syaf wanted me to blog about this, & so I did. :D Er.. I don't wanna be mean. But I just thought of blogging about this. You wanna know what? The old folks there are mostly left with skin & bones. And its hard for you to differenciate between women & men, cause they look all the same. SERIOUS! & theres this old man who approached Yong Xuan. He sang a chinese song & we gave him an applause after every song he sings. We were all trying hard not to laugh. Damn bad right. We should have sing along with him. Maybe at least, we can cheer him up. But by the time he started singing another song, we already walked off. Trying to avoid him. Haha. So we helped out the others with some kitchen stuff. & That was when Syaf told me everything. That was the last thing that I wanted to know. I didnt know I'm that famous. In a way that, people just couldnt stop bitching about me. I don't understand why they are so interested in my personal life. Why don't you just take care of your own ass? Just don't bother about mine. I can take good care of it. (: Anyway, I was kinda dissapointed cause Syaf kinda betrayed me. Hah. Just don't wanna mention anything bout it.

At 6+ P.M, I helped to serve foods for the streaming talk, again. So today it was just the four of us. I don't care even if he claimed that he's my so-called friend. Whatever it is, I'm gonna make sure Hazwan won't get any CIP points cause he did nothing & he came there for like only half an hour. Thats not fair at all. I can't believe Bryan just confessed to me that he doesn't own any balls. Thats quite a pity huh, cause he won't be able to make any babies. I talked alot about balls today. & some people think that I'm horny just because I talked about balls. What the fuck were you guys thinking? I'll get aroused when I talk about balls? Thats bullshit man. I get disgusted just by looking at a guy's balls. It looks like I-don't-know-what-thing dangling under your penis. Okay if you don't get what I mean, then just act like you know everything. :D

2007-07-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

I'm dying to make a new blog layout for myself.
Gaaaaaaaah.
But the problem is, I don't have the time to do it.
*Sighs
So anyway, went to my cousin's wedding on o7o7o7. It was a boring one, though. Most of the invited guests consist of typical MATS - with piercings & tatts (or rather, body art as they phrase it). I can't believe she actually mingle with this kinda people. Heck, it doesn't really matter cause I'm not that close to her, after all.
Oh yes. Let's talk about the so-called beautiful date - 07/07/07. So most people considered o7o7o7 as a lucky day. Or should I say that some people believe o7o7o7 as an auspicious date? In other words, a day which brings fortune. & because of this shit, there were a huge number of wedding ceremonies that were held all over the world. This is just holy crap man. Don't be so superstitious. I don't believe it. Is there any evidence that o7/o7/o7 REALLY brings luck? Prove me wrong then.
Did nothing much today. Had a so-called adventure with my lil sis. Its not exciting at all. We should have go all the way to pulau ubin or something. Thats much more adventurous. -.-"
I can't wait for tomorrow's practical. I don't know why. I'm just so excited. & trust me, I kinda miss school.

Ps : M.C, if you're reading this, I'm sorry for not replying your mail for almost 3 weeks! Been busy lately. I'll mail you soon. I miss you! Theres so much to tell. Haha.

2007-07-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

I'm totally pooped out spending almost the whole day in school.
I went for Red Cross today, like at LAST!
Haha.
Then everyone was like, "Oh my GOD! Nadiah, why you suddenly come?"
& some of my friends said something like, "This is a miracle, man."
After so long, then I decided to attend for my CCA.
So today's training went on smoothly... Except that during the first few minutes of training, I kept on telling myself that going for Red Cross was the dumbest thing to do. I know nothing about foot drill & of course, I don't even know how to march.
I was like smirking when Babs gave me that act-fierce look cause I wasn't even listening to her command.
Theres this sec 1 girl who calls me 'Kakak' which means big sister. & I was like, why the fuck did you call me that? I told her to just call me 'Nadiah'. The word 'Kakak' doesnt suits me cause I don't even look like one. Look at my height. I'm short! Haha. & She said that height doesnt really matter. What matters is that I'm older than her. So she have to respect me. But well, I still don't see the need for her to respect me by calling me that. Theres other ways to show respect to others.
Next, we went to 1N7 classroom to do some posters. But all the used-to-be 2E3 NCOs sat at the back & talked about those times we had when we were in the same class.
& Its kinda funny that now Harrinder can wear barret, without his turban on.
Angie was supposed to teach me how to do foot drill but we ended up chit-chatting in the toilet.
I had to leave early cause I have to help serve foods & drinks to the parents who came for the sec 2s streaming talk. Those heavy boxes that we (me, Kam Choo, Banu, Bryan & Hazwan) have to carry from the staff room to the back of the hall really fagged us out. Even the guys couldnt stand it. Bryan got freaked out by the flickering green lights on the 3rd floor. -.-" Went back home with Kam Choo. Overall, I had a fun day minus the part when someone pissed me off.

No, you don't know the one,
Who dreams of you each night,
& longs to kiss your lips and hold you tight,
To you, I'm just a friend.
That's all I've ever been.
No, you don't know me.

2007-06-30T12:18:00.000+08:00

Hahaha.
I'm laughing my ass off man.
I don't know what amuse me so much but I just got a call from Mama Drama.
Hahaha.
Okay. She's actually my old schoolmate. My used to be classmate too.
The funny thing was, she called me up just to tell me that she was hospitalised yesterday.
So the story goes on this way....
She had a migraine. & She took 20 panadol capsules.
Its kinda hard to believe whatever she tells you. Cause you never know whether its true or not.
She loves to make up stories. Just any stories that crosses her mind.
& I always see her once a week cause we are in the same religious class. Almost everyweek, she would show me her bandaged arms, legs or some minor injuries.
I remembered this incident that I once sat on top of her butt when she was lying facing down on the ground. & she cried cause she told me her backbone hurts so much.
Now thats a total lie. I don't think I'm heavy & she's the opposite of me. Unless she've got some growth on her butt that leads to some backbone pain. Heck, only God knows.
& she tried to flatter me by saying that I'm always on her mind thats why she never fails to phone me at least once a year. Haha. I'm 'LUCKY' cause I have a GREAT friend.
End of story.

2007-06-28T18:10:00.000+08:00

Watch THIS!

I was bored.
So I browsed through some videos.
& I found this one.
I thought you guys might love it. Cause... its somehow intriguing.
Hahaha.

School was fine.
I was late today, for the FIRST time this term.
Usually, I reach school exactly on the dot just when the schoolbell rings.
& We had our bags spot checked just now.
Its only for the latecomers.
This is all Spongebob Squarepants's notion to make the prefects check our bags.
JUST because we are late...................
LAME.
SKSS is so crappy.
-.-"

I've always hated HUMANITIES.
Cause its a real bore & makes me feel sleepy throughout the whole lesson.
& I'm gonna have geog test tomorrow.
Now that totally sucks.
Not forgetting that potato head guy (or whatever students dubbed him as) cant really teach. Nobody listens to him anyway. Cause his lessons are dreary. He loves to nag & he gets distracted easily. At the end of the day, he teaches us nothing. Okay no. Maybe he did. Just a lil bit. Like 5% of the chapter?

Accompanied Nawal & Irah to the school library after school.
& Now I know how the printer actually functions.
Hah. Pretty dumb huh. Been in that school for almost 3 years & I don't know how
to handle the school printer.
Slacked under the void deck with Nawal & headed home after that.

& By the way, have I mentioned anything about M.R.?
Oh well, I think he look great with his new haircut.
Hahaha.

PS : Nawal is the goddess of lion, one of Mama Macaroni's descendants & Woman of MSN.
I'm gifted cause I'm able to come up with lots & lots of nicknames for a particular person. How great is that?

2007-06-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

&^%$#@!
Define the term 'holiday'.
It means.... a time or period of exemption from any requirement, duty, ASSIGNMENT! etc.
-.-"
So whats up with all those homework & projects?!
Oh man. I so hate school holidays.
suuuuuuuuucker.

Is there such thing as fucking yourself?
If there is.. then.. FUCK YOU!
Okay fuck. Totally lame.
I'm fucking bored.
& I feel so fucked up.
-.-"

I'm still wondering how am I suppose to do my malay project in just a few days time.
Also, F&N and IPW project.

So I watched Pocong 2, the other day.
Its about shrouded ghost.
I don't know why but I'm so obsessed with it.
Everywhere I go, I'll picture it hopping up & down trying to catch up with my pace.
& I'll remind myself not to hug any bolster cause who knows it might turn out to look like that shrouded ghost.
Can't help it. My mind tend to run wild everytime.
The weirdest part is that, the movie wasnt scary at all.
Call me scaredy cat, whatever.
I don't mind anyway.
Haha.

2007-06-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

Gaaaaah.
The night is still young.
-.-"
So anyway, did ya guys happen to read this article about friendster in the straits times on June 16?
Under LifeStyle! section.
I totally agree with this person who wrote to the newspaper that having 1000 over friends in friendster, doesnt mean that they are your true FRIENDS.
I mean, how do you define the term friends? Its someone that you've got the chance to talk to orally. Someone whom you know his/her real identity. You are not friends with someone just by sending friend requests through friendster. Thats just purely dumb to think that people who have added you in your friendster, never communicate with you before, be it in MSN or SMS or any form of communication, is your FRIEND. Lol. I admit that I have more than 100 friends in my friendster account. But I don't go around saying that... "Hey, I've got 1600 friends in my friendster account." Thats like, WHAT THE HELL?! Before this article came out, theres this article about two sisters who claimed that they are popular in friendster as they get over 1000 views per month. & They have approximately 1600 friends in their friendster account. & They said that they are happy as they have so many friends. & they received comments on their friendster page saying that they are cute & stuff like that. Cute? Oh. You guys should really check out that particular article. Theres a picture of them posing like a coquette. & EXCUSE ME, I'm not trying to be rude but they look fucking ugly. I cant remember what they wore for the photo shoot. Perhaps, tight micro-mini skirts? I'm not sure. But the main issue here is, do you regard someone who added you in friendster or vice versa but never communicate with you before, your real friend? You don't even know whether such a person exists. & Why the hell am I making such a big fuss over here? Haha. I don't know.

& school holiday gonna end real soon. Part of me feels like going to school now. I really miss school. Like seriously. Don't ask me why. I don't even know why. Maybe cause I'm dead bored at home. Theres nothing I can do, cause I can't go out when both my parents are at home. So the only thing I do is to switch on the computer & surf the net all day long. Sounds dreary to you, but not to me. Cause I'm just used to it. Thats what I do almost every single day without fail. Imagine what my life will be like if theres no computer(with internet access, of course). How crummy, my life is. -.-" & Oh yes, I love playing virtual pool. M.R. said that pool is passion. Haha. & currently he's away so I don't have a friend to vie with in virtual pool. Anyway, eversince I can type without looking at my keyboard, I've been using the computer at night in the dark without switching the lights on. & I can continue playing for hours but before the clock strikes 5 A.M. cause my mom will surely freak out if she found out that I play the computer at night without the lights on. I just love darkness. I don't mind staying in the dark alone.(not at the graveyard or any forests, of course) & due to that, my eyesight is getting from bad to worse.

Its 1 A.M. right now.
I wanna watch TV with my sis.
So till here.

i miss you, sweetheart.
come back soon.

2007-06-15T13:56:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION TO ALL SKSS ML STUDENTS.

Go to http://www.persadaminda.com
Thats Mdm Rabia's latest website.
Read up to know how to sign up.
Its compulsory for you guys to sign up so its easier for Mdm Rabs to give assignments when school re-opens.
So if you're unsure how to sign up your username..
Do as follows.

Example :

Pelajar Julie dari Men 1E
Username = 2007_1E_JULIE

Pelajar Nawal dari Men 3N
Username = 2007_3N_NAWAL

Okay I'm done.
I'm just doing a favour here.

2007-06-15T12:50:00.000+08:00

CATS & DOGS.

Don't take your pets for granted, feed them well and they will protect you.
[WHAT THE HELL?]
Okay. Watch this video if you don't get what I mean.
I saw it at Yahoo. I think the video is cute, so I post it up here. :D

Hahaha.
& oh yes, I do love cats & dogs. (not bulldogs though)
If I can keep a dog as my pet, I'd love to own an Alaskan Malamute - the artic dog.

Cause I think it looks damn adorable. :D

I've got nothing much to do yesterday.
So I bloghopped to this particular person's blog.
Okay let's call this person anonymous.
I love to read anonymous's posts cause its kinda intriguing.
Hahaha.
It seems like this anonymous here falls in love easily & at the same time, anonymous
wants to rush into things. Anonymous expect the person whom anonymous likes, to accept anonymous's love. Sad thing is, anonymous is a lovelorn.
But no matter what, lets just see. Anonymous will get over the person whom anonymous likes, & anonymous will fall for another person. & if they were to get into a r/ship, it won't last long.
Oh man. I'm so mean. How can I predict what's gonna happen to anonymous love life.
Okay I'm sorry. But theres this saying which goes.. "What goes around, comes around." So maybe you're going through karma. Maybe, just maybe... you turned someone down before.. & now the same thing is happening to you.
I guess, I've already learned my mistake. I won't play around with anyone's feelings anymore.
So when I say I love you, I really mean it.
Cheyyyyyy. :D
Okay whatever Nadiah.

I think, Sarinah Isa should get kick out from Anugerah.
Cause during the piano show, she sang real bad.
She spoilt my favourite song - Atas nama cinta.

-.-"

So M.R. will be back on Monday.

Gahhh. & I'm missing him right now.

2007-06-14T17:35:00.000+08:00

CAUTION : Today's post will be in Malay. :D

Aku berjumpa dengan Nawal dan Irah di LJS.
Kami bercadang untuk menyelesaikan kerja-kerja sekolah yang diberikan oleh guru-guru kami.
Cuaca yang agak panas terik menyebabkan aku berasa kurang selesa kerana aku memakai baju lengan panjang.
Ermm.. Janganlah tanya mengapa aku berpakaian sebegitu. Aku hanya sekadar mahu menutup aurat. (WHAT THE HELL?! HAHAHA.)
Lepas itu, kami menuju ke kolong blok yang berdekatan dengan rumahku.
Berjam-jam kami menunggu kedatangan Mimmah yang masih belum muncul lagi.(Exaggerate)
Sampai naik kering tekak aku dibuatnya kerana aku berceloteh(non-stop).
Selang beberapa minit kemudian, Mimmah pun tiba.
Aku dan Irah membuat kerja sekolah kami tetapi kami tidak dapat fokus kerana Nawal mahukan perhatian seratus peratus dari kami semua.
Mimmah berasa bosan lalu dia main permainan 'Snake' yang ada di telefon bimbitnya.
Nawal pula seperti orang yang sedang mempunyai masalah yang terlalu berat, kerana dia tidak habis-habis terpekik terlolong macam orang yang terkena histeria.
Kasihan sungguh aku melihatnya.
Sesudah itu, Nawal menyanyikan lagu 'Pochong' untuk kami semua.
Kerana berasa terlalu bosan, kami semua angkat kaki lalu pergi ke Hougang Mall.
Masa perjalanan ke sana, Nawal mengajar kami bagaimana hendak menyanyi lagu "Ponti-ponti/Momok-momok" (Lol. Nawal is so sick.)
Kami ke NTUC dan membeli snek-snek ringan ; seperti coklat, keropok & gula-gula.
Kami bukan sahaja membeli, malah.. semasa memilih snek (SNACKS lah!), kami memberi banyak komen seperti, "Keropok ni tak sedap lah. Keropok ni macam kipas lah. Keropok chickadees." Macam-macam betul.
Bukan main kecoh lagi!
Lepas itu kami semua pulang..
Dan oh ya.. aku ternampak Melissa & Linda dekat luar Hougang Mall.
Mereka memakai baju seragam Pizza Hut.
Aku dan kawan-kawan ku yang lain pun hairan bagaimana mereka boleh bekerja di sana.
Umur mereka baru mencecah 15 tahun. Itu pun, aku tidak terlalu pasti. Mana tau, hari lahir mereka belum lepas lagi.
& sebelum aku terlupa, Nawal suka mengorek-ngorek benda lalu mengutipnya. (Hahaha. Tak faham takpe)

Ps : Melayu aku hancor man! I really need to read malay books. Its been a long time since I last read em.

2007-06-13T13:16:00.000+08:00

Naddy. says:
haha. u dont like onions also right.
' nawal. says:
yeah. it taste super gross. and look super gross.
' nawal. says:
ew.
Naddy. says:
& smell super gross.
Naddy. says:
hahaha
' nawal. says:
yeah. and it makes pple cry.
Naddy. says:
onions are so mean. it makes people cry.
Naddy. says:
-.-
' nawal. says:
lame.
' nawal. says:
not really
' nawal. says:
it is actually.

Things doesnt seem to work out.
& im sorry for putting the blame on you.
Oh please don't go away.
I still need you by my side.

2007-06-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

Ehhhhh! I'm so pissed off lah.
Kau gadoh ngan mataey kau tu kau peh pasal laaaaaaaah.
Aku tanak tau apape lahhh.
Suke sangat kacau idop aku.
BINGET SEHHH!!!!!!!
Bahlol abigol sundal sondol dodol lahhhhh!
-.-"

I feel so lifeless.
Sometimes I just hate my parents.
Cause they always force me to do things that I don't wish to do.
& What's up with my MOM?
Man.. Her non-stop naggings just make me hate her more!
I only got a U-graded in my report book & she's making a big fuss over it.
Like c'mon.. Its only humanities!
I passed my other subjects & I only failed one subject!
& SKSS just suck.
I don't know how the hell or why the hell I got into that school.
& the worst part is, I'm not even sure why I chose that school in the first place.
I've not been turning up for my fucking CCA & I got a poor conduct grade just because I did not attend any of my CCA trainings. WHAT THE HELL?!
Okay.. So let me tell you what kinda CCA I got into if you're wondering.
I'm a RED CROSS CADET! & I'm so not proud being a part of them.
Cause you wanna know why? My CCA just suck... ALOT!
Imagine, JUST IMAGINE... That you will have to run around the parade square a few times if you dont bring a 1.5 litre bottle when you come for training.
& you will have a fucking history test about RED CROSS.
& Im not sure what other dumb things they make us do.
So I only turn up for my CCA a few times & the last time when I was in sec 1 - term 2 or 3. (I'm not sure)
Can't blame them actually. Maybe I should just blame myself for being such an idiot.
I chose Red Cross as my CCA just because I wanna know how to do CPR.
Sounds dumb huh?
& the WORST part is that, I don't even get to know how to do it cause....... I didnt attend any trainings anymore.
Can't help it. I just don't wanna waste my precious time. Might as well stay at home & sleep.
Okay. I know this is funny. I don't care if you guys (whoever is reading this post) are laughing at me. I deserved to be laughed at cause I'm just dumb. -.-"
Confession of an Idiot.
Hah. Bla bla bla bla.

I had a nightmare just now.
I dreamt that I lost all of my close friends.
& everyone were bitching about me being a whore.
So that made my friends keeping a distance away from me.
& in that dream, I became a loner.
God please don't make this dream come true!
Man, I'm so pathetic.

Okay. I'm done.
Take care lovelies.

I wanna sit at the beach under the shining stars with you.

2007-05-26T01:31:00.000+08:00

So I asked him how does he define the term 'special friendship'.
& he answered me.. "Friends with benefits. Friends who has feelings for each other but can't commit."
I wasnt expecting that kind of an answer. I was kinda dissapointed. What does he actually mean by we can't commit?
So again, I asked him... "So does that mean I can mingle with any guys I like & get close to them?"
& he answered.... "Well, go on. You don't belong to me."
Ahhhh. & I don't know why I nearly cried.

2007-05-25T14:09:00.000+08:00

Oh god.
He's starting it again.
Theres no name mentioned in my previous post anyway.
Jgn terase lah.
-.-"

2007-05-19T16:12:00.000+08:00

show me your fucking attitude & i'll show you how bitchy i can be.
you may know me for..... only god knows how many years.
& yet, you still don't know the real me.
cause you just don't bother.
i'm not as bossy as your previous girlfriend.
but i can be like her too if you provoke me.
heck, who cares anyway.
you're not mine, afterall.
you can get out of my life now or whenever you wish to.
i just don't give a damn.

2007-05-18T18:30:00.000+08:00

ignore the previous post.
its crappy & shitty.
i know.

so anyway, had fun with my girlfriends yesterday.
& yeaaaaaaa, it was nawal's birthday.
glad that nawal enjoyed herself.

& today is mimmah's birthday.
happy birthday to u! :D

i don't know what else to post about.
& i lost my 20 bucks.
like what the hell.
-.-"

ps : i read mimmah's & faisal's post. i think its cool to blog in malay! hahaha.

2007-05-15T19:20:00.000+08:00

2007-05-15T18:01:00.000+08:00

I thought I was doing him a favour.
A favour which he never asked for.
I wanted to be a friend, who can be there for him all the time;
Someone who can ease his sorrowness & help him to get over his past.
I thought I can do all that without falling for him.
& well again, I was so wrong.
Everything begins on the month of April.
That particular day when we met up & actually talked, for the first time.
I wanted to spend the whole night with him.
But its not possible for me to do so.
Oh how I wish I could.

That glimpse of his smile is totally captivating.
& when he smile, I could only smirk.
His presence sends butterflies to my stomach.
And just for kicks lets just add,
He may be the most wonderful person I have ever met.
Hypothetically, my heart beats ten times faster when I see him.
Well.. maybe I did exaggerate.
But thats exactly how I feel.

What is love & what does it define?
How do I tell if it's love or just a simple crush?
Do you know how confusing you are?
You are the most confusing person that I've ever met.
Sometimes you confuse me so much till
I get confused about why Im still so crazy over you.

I guess I liked him from the start.
I'm so confused, I don't know what to do.
Oh god, please help me.
I just don't know what to do.
I don't know why I let him in.
& this seems so loony cause I'm falling for him.
Its just so hard to get him out of my mind.
Let's just blame it on the month of April.

- i love you so.

2007-05-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

Hey yo! People, WATCH THIS!
I think its a really cute video.
HAHAHA.

2007-05-10T14:15:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA!
I just couldn't stop laughing.
At last! I've got the chance to see his stupid funny faces.
HAHAHAHA!
Man. I'm laughing my ass off right now.
Okay so actually I was viewing his friend's friendster profile
& I saw him in one of those pictures.
Ermmm. Seriously. I'm still laughing.
Okay. I better stop it.
Ehem! But nevertheless, he still look cute.
HAHAHA.
:D
& Talking about him,
I'm missing him so much right now.
Haiszzz.

& YAY!
Exams are finally over!
YeeeHaaa!
Had F&N paper just now.
I think, the paper was not that difficult.
Somehow, I think its the easiest paper among the other subjects.
But still, I'm not sure whether I can score well for F&N.
Cause this is only 40% & I did not even finish up my coursework.
& my coursework is like 60% of the overall marks.
-.-"
Oh well. What else can I say.. Its over anyway.

2007-05-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling better compared to yesterday
just because I drank a middle-sized cup of coca-cola!
Ahhh... So if you guys noticed, now is the 'season of sickness'.
A lot of people have been so sick.
& seems like people are passing viruses to each other.
I hope there won't be any upcoming infectious diseases which might affect Singapore.
Then our school will have to conduct temperature-taking exercise, again;
If there would be such diseases like SARs.
& then people will go around walking with mask covering their mouths.
They look so dumb. Might as well walk around with 3-whole-face-mask.
& again, if they were to wear that, people would mistake them as a part of the J.I troop.
Especially if they were to carry a weapon with them.
Oh my god! Why am I blabbering about J.I. here? They are going to locate me.
I'm so gonna be dead.
Oh god please save me!
Craps.
Pardon me for being so exaggerating.
I can't help it. Just sick in the head.
-.-"

So anyway, had chemistry paper just now.
I'm not sure whether I'm gonna make it through this time or the other way round.
But one thing for sure, I'm gonna flunk my humanities papers.
Firstly, I didn't study for geography cause of my sickness.
& hence, making me feel so lethargic & not in the mood to do any revision.
Ahh. Yes! I have to get myself in the mood if I wanna study or do something
that needs me to focus on.
So I guess that kinda explain why I don't really study cause most of the
time when I start to open up my textbook, I'll feel dopy like as if I'm on drug or something.
:X

Went to the library after school with Naw,Wann & Irah.
& I'm hyper as always.
Haahh!
I feel like shaking my head like I always do when I'm with my friends.
& I'd love it if Irah were to join me in & shake her's too.
HAHAHA.
Macam anak koling. -.-"
Let's groove to the beat, baby!

I don't know what's come over me now.
I feel like talking about crappy stuffs all night!
& I don't wish to stop.
HAHAHA.
Can I laugh, please?
Okay, I just did.
-.-"

& Oh YES! That Dambaan song really makes me keep on
reminiscing about those days at Kg. Pelegong.
Why? Because I've been listening to that song over & over again during
my trip there.
Damn how much I miss that place & my foster family.
& I won't forget the two little ones, Aleeya & Nabila
who managed to make me adore small kids.
Erm, yes. I used to dislike small kids. -.-"
I just miss all of them so much.
Thank you for making me feel like I'm a part of your family.

& erm, I do look like a part of them. I mean, small kids. :X

I guess I'll stop here then.
Take care sweety piessss.
<3

Its pretty sad to know that someone you think of every single day without fail,
isn't yours but just a friend.

2007-05-06T00:45:00.000+08:00

I'm so sick.
Down with flu & sore throat.
-.-"
Haisz..

i miss M.R.

2007-05-05T01:32:00.000+08:00

I love people that are mentally deranged.

Figure it out yourself.
You guys are love. (:

Met up with M.R. just now.

Suppose to study with him but I ended up helping

him with his D&T.

Hahaha.

& pleaseeeeeeeee. I wanna say this again.

M.R. is super cute & damn irresistible.

Umm.. since no one has ever call him hot before...

maybe I should be the first one to call him that.

& so, M.R. is HOT!

Hahaha.

I can't sleep tonight.

You've been running through my mind.

I'm yearning for your touch.

2007-05-04T16:28:00.000+08:00

Heylo people!
:D

Physics paper was like !@$%&*%$.
Haha.
But it would be a manageable paper for me if I did study for it.
Umm. So yeah. I didn't study for the paper.
Had malay listening compre next.
& Aufa keep telling me that the answer to question 1 is C. ;
When the fact is that he did not get the question paper yet.
& So how the hell did he know the answer?!
Hahaha.
Gila punya anak. -.-"
Took pictures with Mdm Rabby after that.

Slacked after school with my lovely ladies.
:D
Had lots of fun.
I love you guys like fcuk.
HAHA.
:D
You guys are bunch of awesome people, man!

& I didn't talk to my sister yesterday.
For the whole day, mind you.
After the incident, it just seem so awkward & weird
to see her sitting in the room alone.
I wanted to talk. But I guess... I'll just let it be then.
-.-"
*Sighs
I don't know whether I have to apologise or not.
Since I'm younger than her.
But well, I'm so sure that I didn't start it first.

2007-05-03T22:23:00.000+08:00

My lovely ladies. <3
See what I mean?

I'm a retard.

I mean, I look like a retard.

I behave like a retard, too.

Pathetic. :X

Here I am!

I'm back, people.

HAHAHA.

Okay. Seriously. I'm updating my blog cause Nawal is bored

reading the same post over & over again.

So I guess I should type out everything here.

Let's talk about today's papers first.

Had Social Studies & E-Maths paper today.

I did so 'well' for my social studies paper.

I'm so sure that I will score a single digit for my SS.

Umm.. Or perhaps, I just need another 2 to 3 marks to pass.

I don't know why but I don't really care.

Had Maths paper next.

I think, I did okay..

I hope I'll pass my maths cause its kinda easy, actually.

To me, that is.

Haha. But the thing is, I don't know whether I can score or not.

& I saw M.R. today.

He look so cute, adorable & irresistible.

HAHAHA.

& I'm like suddenly so damn hyper the moment I saw him.

Hahh.

He never fails to make my day.

Thus leading (social studies comes in) me to 'switch on' my happy mode.

Thought of studying physics with Nawal & Irah but we ended

up chit-chatting in the library, as usual.

But it would be much more fun if Mrs Piglet join us.

Hahaha.

Okay. See how bad I am.

Calling her Mrs Piglet.

Hussssssssh.

I love to give people nicknames.

So anyway, Nawal was like damn dramatic when she found out that

Moley guy won't be working anymore.

Cause the place where he used to work is already closed.

"Boleh menang anugerah pelakon wanita terbaik, ah Nawal!"

Ummmm.

Did I mention anything about M.R.?

Oh yes, I did.

*Sighs.

I wanna blog about him in my every single post.

Haaah!

Gonna have my physics & malay paper 3 in 8 hours time.

Haha.

& believe it or not, I have not even started revising anything on physics.

Oh shitsssss.

I'm so dead, man.

I'll be revising later.

Anyway, last minute revision does work out for me.

Ummm. SERIOUSLY!

I'm not kidding.

Hahaha.

But it depends lah actually.

Can I repeat this again?

M.R. is super damn cute & irresistible!

Okay fine.

Stop it siol Nadiah.

Stop annoying your readers.

I talk like as if I've got a whole bunch of faithful readers.

My life is not that interesting, after all.

& sometimes, it can be a bore.

-.-"

So I guess, till here then.

I have to stop before I starts to type nonsensical stuffs here.

Ummm. Pssstt. My mind is corrupted, especially at night.

I love to talk crappy stuffs which can sometimes, arouse some people.

*Winks

HAHAHA.

Mepek siol Nadiah.

2007-04-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

I saw Haziq today.
I was like damn shocked to see him sey.
I've been trying to avoid him all these while.
He changed alot lah.
I don't like his new image.
It just look damn sucky.
& with all those piercings all over his face & ears,
just make him look even much more worser.
& he've got a dyed pink/purple/red streaks rebonded fringe with a curly hair.
So tell me now, what kinda hairstyle is that?
He's into emo but he look more like a mat.
I don't have any idea whether he knows my new url for my blog.
Umm.. so anyway, if you're reading my blog right now,
& if you feel kinda offended, i'm sorry aight. Just blogging out what I think of you.
Seriously sey. You are a totally different person from what I knew a few years back.
I really want you to be like what you were when I first met you.
That mummy's-boy-look with your spectacles on. Without any piercings!
Ahh. Come on. I want my old Haziq back.
Change for the better & not for the worser.
& I totally miss that sweet smile of yours.
If you're willing to change yourself, I'll stay.
If you don't want to, then I won't force.

PS : Where the hell is my tagboard? LOL.

Things ain't getting any better.
I've been thinking of you the whole day.
Can't help it.
My friends are getting bored with me.
Its you that I always talk about.

2007-04-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

ARGHHHHH!
Okay. FINE. FINE. FINE.
I won't be alright without you here, with me.
& I admit that I don't wanna lose you.
I want you okay.
I need you.
I wanna fuck my life upside down.
But its not possible to do so.
DAMN IT!
I DO REALLY LIKE YOU.

2007-04-24T20:02:00.000+08:00

Heyloo! :D

Firstly, MYE is coming up soon baybeh!
& yeah, maybe he's right. I gotta concentrate on studies first.
Oh wellssssss. I decided to give him a new nickname since
Mr Pimpies is kinda offensive.
Okay so lets call him M.R. people!
Marcus, M.R. is kinda close to M.C. huh? LOL.

So school was okay for me.
& What a waste! I didn't get to see M.R. "dancing".
Tsk. See, I always missed out the bestest part!
But at least, I did get to see him with his friends during recess time.
Ahh. & Can I say that he look damn gorgeous?! Hahaha.
Okay. That sounds kinda gay.
Well, he always look good anyway.
:D

After school, headed to Hg Mall with Wally & Mimmah.
Had our lunch there.
& Currently, I'm burping.
Smell like LJS seyy.
HAHAHA.
Okay. That's kinda errmm... TAK SENONOH!
So while we were having our lunch, Irah came & joined us.
We were supposed to study but we ended up chit-chatting.
Haha. Okay no. I'm the one who did the talking.
I tried to irritate them but I only got Wally's & Irah's attention.
& I'm kinda satisfied lah! At least get to disturb them.
HEHE.
& I don't know what amused me so much that I kept on laughing real hard.
Nawal accidentally pushed me & tadaaaa! My head hitted the glass wall.
They were all laughing at me. So bad right. HMMPH! -.-"
Went back home before 5 p.m.

I'm actually kinda pissed off with my bloody comp.
Cause I was half-way blogging & it suddenly shut down. :S

& good luck people for MYE!
<3

I don't know why I let it go too far,
Starting over it's so hard.
Seems like everywhere I try to go,
I keep thinking of you.

2007-04-20T18:27:00.000+08:00

Ahh. NAWAL, apology not accepted.
Until you tell him that you were the one who messaged him just now!
WHAT THE HELL NAWAL!
Seriously, I'm gonna tell your boboy things that I feel like telling.
Alright? Haaaaahs. I would love to take revenge on you.
:D

School was okay. I've been talking alot in class these days.
& yesterday was like so damn fun.
I really enjoyed myself, cause I laughed & jumped alot.
LOL.

Oh yesssss.
I saw Syarif & Liana just now.
I'm like, WOW! They are still going on strong.
& I'm kinda impressed, actually.
I can't really recognise Syarif cause his face look kinda different.

& why is everyone, I don't mean everyone, I mean, most people,
been asking me to smile more?! LOL. Well, maybe, I think, I should smile more often.
Especially to that guy whom I really like.

I'm so tired of not being able to think of anything else besides him.
& the sight of him always makes my day go by a lot better.
I really think that he is a great guy and everything, I MEAN IT!
But then again, I guess he is just not for me.
Well, come on Nadiah.
You gotta stop daydreaming about him
& get on with your life.
Like HELLO?! He needs so much time to get over her.
You gotta understand that!
I think, I'm really too much.
I shouldn't be expecting much from him right?!
Ahh. Nevermind.
I'm confused right now.
Should I still keep on liking him or move on with my life?
I really like him, I really do.
& Trust me, I can go crazy if I didn't get to see him for at least, a day.
That sounds kinda CREEPY actually. Hahs.

2007-04-17T17:20:00.000+08:00

My Life Was A Mess, And Smiles Were Quiet..
Couples In Love Was What I Admired..
Thoughts Of Showering Love On Someone, Seemed Impossible..
But You Took That Away And Turned The Table..

You Took Me Back To The Times To What I've Missed Out,
Showed Me Thousand And One Ways To Sit On Fluffy Clouds..
You Helped Coloured Patches Of Love In My Life,
And Gave Me A Reason Why The Word "Love" Should Survive..

You Maybe Small In Size And Naughty At Times,
Disturbing People And Irritating Their Minds Seemed Like Your Favourite Past Time.
However, There Is A Sweeter Side Of You That Really Shines..
That Actually Makes One Feel That Loving You Is A Crime..

You Appreciated Me So Much, Like No One Did,
You'd Probably Think That I've Exaggerated Quite A Bit..
What I've Stated Is All True And Real,
Oh, And I'm Glad We're Still Exchanging Mails..

I Can Never Thank You Enough For Entertaining Me,
Playing Along With Those Silly Ideas From My "IdeaS" Tree..
Others Would Have Probably Shut Me Down, And Labelled Me Crazy..
But, You Sticked Around And Somehow Changed The Way I Tasted Coffee..

Marcus wrote this poem for me. How sweet can he be?!
Hahaha. I really love it, alot. (:
Cause I've never had any guys writing me a poem before.
So to me, its kinda sweet.

Well, school was okay for me.
& I think, he really look good with his new hair-cut.
He didn't even look like a retard at all. (Well, that's what I was expecting him to look like. LOL)

I don't really know what to blog about anyway.
Exams are coming up soon.
& I still haven't done any revisions yet.
Been feeling kinda sleepy these days. Maybe due to lack of sleep.
Hahs.

I'm so into him. I've been having never-ending thoughts of him.
When the actual fact is that we're just normal friends.
Well, maybe.. special friends.
I think, I should just try to stop thinking about him.
I should not be checking him out in school.
I should not be talking about him.
Maybe Nawal is right. I can never have him.
These feelings just makes me go so crazy over him.

2007-04-14T18:24:00.000+08:00

Its funny how rude a guy can be if he did not get what he wants.
HAHAHA.
Well.. Wan called me up earlier on & he asked me why is it so difficult to talk to me these days.
Then I told him I was busy & so on & so forth. He was like, don't lie to me. If you don't wanna talk to me anymore, say so. Be straight forward. Then I told him that I'm glad he realised that I don't have the time & I don't wanna talk to him anymore.&he was like swearing me. I couldnn't hear much cause I've already hang up.
& Coincidentally, I was reading my daily horoscope & it says that.....

"Manners are important when it comes to the social process. You, more than most people, know the importance of courtesy (which isn't so common anymore). It's amazing what social graces can do when consistently applied."

& I'm like WOW. Hahaha. Tomorrow sure gonna see his face with two steamy eyes. Damn.
Did nothing today. Spent like almost the whole day sleeping. Hahaha.

& I'm like missing him so damn much.
♥

2007-04-13T17:34:00.000+08:00

Ahhh.
He is so damn irritating lahh.
Cannot stand it sakkk.
Keep asking, why this & that..
Could you please just stop asking so many questions?
You annoyed me, damn much.
AHHHHHH.
Only if you are right in front of me, I'll make you shut the fuck up.
You make me so stressed up sakk.
HAISZ.

Wellllllllll, okay. I don't know why.
I'm just so confuse right now.
Damn it lah.
GRR.

& About friendship,
I don't think I'm the one who avoids you.
At least, I make the effort to smile or say HELLO.
Okay fine. Maybe, I'm too short to be noticed.
But honestly, I'm missing you terribly.
Come to think of it, we don't really talk much now.
So what actually went wrong?
I've been wondering why we are not that close anymore.
Don't give me excuses such as, when you ask me out, I won't want to follow.
I can't. If I can, I will. I mean, come on.. To me, you guys are important in my life.
We've been friends for so long... I don't wish to see us going on our separate ways.
It just seems so unfair. Ahhh. Theres no words to describe my feelings.
I really love you, my friend. I really do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

& seriously, teenagers who smokes, kental nak mampos! no offence yeah.

2007-04-12T19:58:00.000+08:00

I've been feeling so restless these days.
Funny thing was, I gotta know that both Ariff's cat resembles mine.
I'm like, WHAT THE HELL?! Sebok je kau.
Hahaha.
& I actually match-maked Mimmye with Hazwan.
I don't know why, but somehow I think, they might make a really good pair.
& Ariff agreed with me too. So yeaaaah!
Ermm.. So what actually happened today eh?
Nothing much lah.
Slacked under the void deck with Nawal cause I just thought of cheering her up,
since she look so damn sad ; dissapointed, well.. maybe.. mixed-up feelings.
Then suddenly saw Dadeybabat. He shouted "OI!". I turned around & he smiled at me.
& I'm not so sure what he was blabbering about. Not so clear though.
I'm just like, ya.. ya.. ya..
So well, I'm doing nothing right now. Kinda bored.
Ummm.. I guess, till here then.

toodles for now~

2007-04-11T17:48:00.000+08:00

"TAU TAKPE, TAK TAU, TANYE KAK NADIAH."
Well, I know that sounds kinda lame. But I just couldn't help it. Haha.
Had lunch at MacD with Bawal, Mek, Liah & Syahirah two, after school.
Nawal & Me keeps on immitating the way Mr. Pimpies talk.
Like, "Hey dude, what does that suppose to mean?"
"Dude, why is that so?"
Dude here & there.
Well, I don't know what to blog about actually, just felt like blogging.

2007-04-10T19:25:00.000+08:00

God damn it! I'm so in love with PUSSIESSSSSS. :D

CATTY, my handsome boy! :D

not photogenic lah this white fella.

2007-04-10T18:09:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA.
okay. this is like damn funny.
aku tau aku tkde kene-mengene.
tapi aku tak favourite siol ngn tu pompan!
omfg. like what? kapepek? hahaha.
okay lah apape.

yesterday was superb!
ahah!
had lotsa fun & i actually laughed alot.
i'm like one mad dog who keeps on laughing.
& that big panda guy, who happens to be hanuram's clone really make my day.
HAHAHA.
at least have something to laugh about.
& the funniest part is that, he tried to flirt with Aniysh.
he's like damn big lah.
yikes.
& his butt takes up like two seats.
but well, at least i managed my impulsivity by not trying to be rude to him.
if i were to do that, i guess, i might ended up like a flat pancake.
HAHAHA. cause he will be sitting on top of me.
he must be one of the sumo wrestler's son.
or perhaps, grandson?
HAHAHA.
OMG.
God, I'm sorry for being so damn mean.

so anyways, i had a debate conversation with Wan, last night.
he said that its hard to find pretty girls who are faithful to only one guy, nowadays.
im like, what do u guys expect? if u want a faithful girlfriend, why not try out
those ugly ones? u can't expect too much from pretty girls. & so does good-looking guy. they only want good-looking girls. so what happen to the not-good-looking people? haisz.

went to the library today with Nawal.
saw Zacky.
i mean, i didn't actually see him. Nawal saw him first.
so she was like trying to shout out his name but i stopped her
& oh yeah, that moley guy. Nawal have been eyeing on him. HAHA.

& i'm really sorry M.C.!
honestly, i didn't mean it. :(

2007-04-08T01:02:00.000+08:00

Oh man.
I really wanna get away from this.
It's killing me..
& It hurts me so much.
So I thought that I needed someone to talk to.
Called Nawal for like 765894036 times but she did not pick up.
Haha. Okay. That's like so exaggerating.
Its not like I only call Nawal cause I was bored. I just need to talk to her.
Then, called Hazwan but he was sleeping.
& At last, I decided to call Danny.
We talked about loads of stuffs within a few minutes,
but then his gf interupted our conversation.
So I told him to hang up & call his gf instead.
He did not want to, but I insisted.
& So now, here I am!
I'm just blogging so that I could release everything here.
It's already late right now.
Having my religious class tomorrow at 8 a.m.

Till here then.
<33

2007-04-06T12:33:00.000+08:00

LAME DIRTY JOKES FOR THE DAY!

Lady : Doc, I have an infection down there.

Doc : How often do you have sex?

Lady : Once in six months.

Doc : God! That's not an infection. That's RUST!

_________________________________________

To make it straight, she pulls it.

To make it stand, she rubs it.

To make it stiff, she licks it.

To let it "IN", she pushes in.

True! Threading a needle is not easy!

_________________________________________

8 qualities of a perfect husband.

- Brave

- Intelligent

- Gentle

- Polite

- Energetic

- Nutty

- Industrious

- Sensitive

& if all else fails, read the capital letters only!

_________________________________________

On a wedding night, a nervous husband tells his wife,

"I'm only 5 ft. 6 inches!"

Wife : Forget the 5 ft & just concentrate on the 6 inches!

_________________________________________

2007-04-06T02:40:00.000+08:00

OMFG.
This is like totally cool man!
I can't believe it.
My beloved M.C. has a connection with my sister BF?!
Like, What The Hell.
HAHAHA.
What a coincidence.

Okay, currently chatting with Mr Pimpies & M.C.
I can't stop laughing sia.
M.C. is really funny.
& not to forget, he is totally adorable. HAHA.
Going out with Mr Pimpies tomorrow I guess.
:D

2007-04-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

ASAL BLOGGER MCM SIAK SEH?!

GRR. Okay nevermind.
Damn. My wrist hurt alot man!
My sister go & twist & turn it around.
-.-"

Currently thinking what to reply to him.
Kinda bored actually.
School was okay today.
Taught Kam Choo alot of malay words.
From gila babi to gila katak & all sorts of weird stuffs.

Ziq asked me out like again.
I don't know whether I wanna meet him or not.
Its been some time since I last saw him.
So if we were to suddenly go out together, it will just seem so awkward,
to have to spend time with him.
& sometimes I wonder why he always say that he miss me,
when he already have loads of girlfriends that he could spend time with.

So anyways, I'm kinda irritated by this nadzyakato.
Very KPO.
-.-"

hmmmm.. nothing else to blog about.
so yeah, till here.

M.C. is love. :D

2007-04-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

Well.. I don't know what to update about.. So here's a lame thingy on horoscope.

VIRGO - The One that Waits Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only.

SCORPIO - The Addict EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

LIBRA - The Lame One Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with ... u might end up crying...

ARIES - The Liar Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud.

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

GEMINI - Irresistible Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in the you know where... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

LEO - The Lion Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is re all y good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

CANCER - The Cutie MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic.. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

PISCES - The Partner for Life Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word.. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around.Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

TAURUS - The Tramp Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with- you might end up crying.

Loads of nonsensical stuffs lah! I know. I know. HAHAHA.

I'm just posting it here for the sake of updating my stupid blog.

2007-03-30T13:34:00.000+08:00

Didn't go to school again today.
Went to the doc on Wednesday night.
I have infection in my left eye.
& its swelling.
It hurts alot lah.
But I THINK, its getting better.
I hope so.
The stupid eye ointment, eyedrops & antibiotic
didn't help much.
Instead, it makes the infected area grew even bigger!
HAHA. But, now, the swelling is not that bad lah.
& I'm like half-blind yesterday. At least now, I can see like 2/4
using my left eye & my right eye is in good condition.
Hope it will get better during this weekends.
& I'am seriously that there won't be any infection in my
eye by Monday! Hehs.
& My sis took a picture of my left eye.
She gonna post it in her blog soon. HAHAHA.

& what a waste! Didn't get to enjoy the fun with Aniysh, Babs & IB yesterday.
HMMPH!

& I'm loving Marcus for his non-stop emails! =)

2007-03-28T16:41:00.000+08:00

Okay. Nawwy suro aku update. So aku updatelah. Mata aku tembel. Macam siak kan. SAKIT GILA BABI SEHH! Tsk.

2007-03-21T17:05:00.000+08:00

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2007-03-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

okay cool.
my blogger still in belo-belo mood.
-.-"
seems like most of us misses kampong pelegong so much eh?
i miss the people there too.
& i miss everything that we did there.
i promise i won't forget you people!
im looking forward to the next trip to kg. pelegong, if there's any.

so just now went to watch The Messengers with my family at Vivo.
its a fine movie & it contains alot of suspense.
the sound effects yang melebih-lebih.
lol.
it somehow resembles the story of Amytiville.
after that, had lunch at fig & olive.
the spaghetti taste yucky!
ew.
& so does the soup of the day.
hahaha.
better have lunch at foodcourt.
more nicer.
-.-"

went to bugis after that.
& had dinner at banquet at raffles outlet.
& off home after that.

been going out with family for 3 times this week.
going out again tomorrow i guess.

2007-03-16T13:28:00.000+08:00

TEST. TEST.

Okay people.

I can't really blog cause I'm having problem with blogger.

So let's just let these pictures do the talking.

Alright?

Haah!

& I really miss my kampung & foster family there.